stainless love💜

chap 13

After Ravi went in, I stayed there for almost 15 mins. I hopped he would come out again and I could see him but he didn’t showed up so I drove back home with a broken heart.
I closed the door of home behind and went in. seohyun came and asked in worried
_are u ok?....u seem tired...
I passed her without responding
_are u hungry?...do u want something to eat?
she asked louder again.
I ignored her and went to bedroom. I leaned on the closed door and looked at mina who was sleeping peacefully on the bed and my tears dropped again, I sat there and led my tears to shed silently, I never known failing in a love relationship can this much hard.
When I opened my eyes, it was all dark, I had a pillow under my head and there was a blanket on me, I got confused since I couldn’t remember when I took a pillow and blanket, so mina must have done this. I got up and undressed and went to bed and lied next to mina.

*******
+im home...
_daaaaddddyyy
I hug a little cute and beautiful baby girl who runs to me. I spin her and kiss her on cheek and neck some
_daddy...we made u some cookies
She says while running toward the coffee table and offers me one piece. I take it willingly and put all of it in my mouth
+wow its so delicious baby…
She gets happy and smiled
+where is dad?
_he’s in back yard
I go out and find him while gardening.
+ure much sexier when ure gardening
He laughs and stands up, turning to me. I go to him and kiss him passionately on his neck. then he moves a lil and I see what’s behind him, a garden full of beautiful red roses in a heart shape
+wow...Ravi...it’s wonderful
×Leo...
+yes...
×Leo...
+yes...
×Leo...wake up...

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I opened my eyes and I saw mina while rubbing my back
_did u sleep well?
+im not sure...
+u were smiling so I thought u had a sweet dream
I nodded as I thought about the dream I just had.

Around a month passed and I was too much busy that I even couldn’t find a time to eat but it was better for me, bc I couldn’t think much about Ravi so I wouldn’t get upset too much.
It was around 7:30 p.m. when I got home, I buried myself in the couch and tried to relax myself when I saw mina came out of seohyun's room.
She was sad and about to cry so I got worried
+is everything ok?...Are u in pain?...Is seohyun sick?
She shook her head to all the question so I got confused
+so what is it?...Why ure sad?
Mina sat next to me, seohyun came too and sat on another couch.
She looked even worse, her eyes was all puffy bc of over crying.
_I want to tell u something that changes ur life but promise to put in
I saw seohyun started to cry again, but mina took my chin and turned my face to herself and continued
_im always here for u and u can lean on me
I was annoyed and wanted to know it soon
+ure killing me just say it...what is it?
_ok...ok...take a deep breath first
I did as she said
_it’s about Ravi...he had an accident...
I got shocked. seohyun cry got even worse
+it’s not that bad...right!?
_it was so bad...
+where is he now?...im going there...
I was about to stand up but mina took my hand and forced me to stay sat
_he was driving back from shopping when a truck crashed his car
+is he alright?...is he wounded?
_Ravi...actually he...
+what?...just say it for God's sake
I asked with a high voice
_im sorry but he is dead and tomorrow morning is his funeral
I froze. I didn’t want to believe it
+is it a joke?...
_what?...
Mina wondered
+wow so funny...I know it’s a prank...
_Leo...I know it’s...hard to believe...but....he is really....gone
Seohyun said through her sobs
_where are u going?
Mina asked me as i stood up
+im going to take a shower
_Leo...plz don’t do anything stupid...just try to live with it...

I opened the shower not to hear what mina was saying. I felt a much relief when water poured on my skin.
I didn’t want to believe it. how could I bear it.
the only thing I was happy about was that Ravi is gonna live without any stress from me but what should I do now.
I sat on the floor and cry out under the pouring water till my tears dried.

I didn’t attend the funeral, neither went out of the room.
I cried for 4 days, barely eat, talk or sleep, I was a total mess.
Seohyun came in the room, I ignored her like what I have done these days, ignoring seohyun and mina.
She sat beside me, while I was laid on my side, she rubbed my back and started to talk warm and kind.
_Leo...u and Ravi are like my real sons...sons that I never had...I love u both the same...but it was an accident
+a painful accident...he must felt a lot of pain...
_this is the fact that hurts me bad
+I mean he burnt in fire... it must be so bad...
_lets say he is free of all the pain and hurts in this cruel world and he can be happy now...and im sure he only want to see ur happiness
+u say he is in heaven now?
_of course he was the most kind boy I have ever known... I mean beside u...
+so he is in heaven and happy but what about me?
_Leo...I told u... y're like my own son... I lost Ravi…now I can’t sit and watch u killing urself gradually...plz try and live ur life for me...if u love me...as much as I love u
+u know I love u so much
_I cant lose u too
She said and started to cry again. I sat and hugged her
+y're the one who has raised me…and love me...technically...u gave me something that my mom should have done long time before....but she never did...
_so...do u promise to live a....good life?
She asked through her sobs
+I do anything for u...living is so easy...(I wiped her tears and continued) don’t cry anymore...he is in our hearts plus u still have me...
Suddenly we heard a scream. we both panicked as it was mina's voice.
we ran to living room. she was on couch but wasn’t feel well
_is it the baby?
Seohyun asked and mina responded in pain
_baby is coming

We were waiting for hours that was like eternity. seohyun and I and parents.
finally doctor came out of the maternity and we ran to her
+just tell me she's alright?
_yes they both are alright...baby is born at 28 weeks and he has to be hospitalized but ur wife can go home after 1 or 2 days…they’re so lucky….early baby delivery can be dangerous…
_so it's a boy...
My dad asked in happiness
_when we can see him?
Then mina's mom asked with a lot of excitement
_maybe in a month but for now only his dad can go and see him
She responded warmly and left.

One hour later I wore a special hospital dress and went in a more special room. many infants were there and I can say they all were look a like. a nurse told that where my son is and I saw him in special bed with a lot of machines attaching to him. he was sleeping there peacefully I was really happy to see him. my heart was beating faster and I couldn't stop myself from smiling, he was going to be the reason of my joy.
+hi baby boy... welcome to this beautiful world...I promise u that I'll try my best to be a very good dad and friend to u...