The life of shy

Chapter one- The nightmare

  *phone alarm rings*
     'Ugrrr' I thought. I rolled over and grab my phone and look at it. 6:00 am. than turn my alarms off. I put my phone down and yawn. My boxer, duke, is taking the whole bed as normal. The light is off as my sister is sound asleep in her bed across the room for me. I forgot to turn my alarm off since now I'm kinda home bound. I do my work at home now. I just got to go to school to take my test. I roll over, after pushing duke out of the way, and cuddled under my blanket. Duke gets up and turns in circles and lays down pushing against me. After an hour or so, my sister gets up. She still goes to school but she don't ride the bus. She gets ready with her makeup and changes into her nice clothes and gets ready to leave. I get up shortly after she leaves because I can't sleep. I take duke out and feed him and let him out. I yawn and sit back down. I look over at my medicine and sigh heavily. 'Guess I need to take them' I thought as I grab it and I get up and take my medicine with a bottle of water. I sit back down and yawn again. 'Ugr another boring day' I thought and lay back on my bed and stare at the roof. All the thought slowly circling around in my head and I fell asleep sometime during that time.
  * nightmares/ flash back*
I walking up my driveway slowly getting ready to get on the bus to go to school with my dog beside me. I was smiling and I was texting my friends. The wind was blowing around softly moving the leaves around and it was a cool, clear fall day. It smelt like fresh rain in the air and the natural wood smells. My dog is happily walking in front of me with the dog down the street. I stop at the end of the driveway, while I was texting my friends. Everything seem great. It's a beautiful day. It smelts good and the wind was just perfect for a hoodie. My dog ran across the road to go meet her friends , the dogs across the street, and play with them like every day. I just look up and she turns around and she haves this adorable dog smile with her tongue out. She looks so sweet and cute. She starts to run back towards me. I heard a car and I look over and I see a car speeding down the hill and everything slows down. I scream "no" but nothing come out. I ran towards her but in a blink of an eye. She was gone. The car drug her down the road. I drop everything and run toward her.
       *end of flashback/ nightmares *
I woke up screaming and crying. My hands are sweating and I'm shaking. My breathing gets heavy and my chest is hurting. I feel like I can't breathe and my head is spinning. My vision is going out and in. After a few minutes, I finally calm down from my panic attack and I take deep breathing. I'm still shaking and I hold my head in my hands. 'God.. I hate this' I thought as I take calming deep breathes. I decided to just watch some YouTube. I grab my phone and looked at the time and date. Monday 12:35 pm. 'Hm, guess I'm gonna watch YouTube for a while' I thought as I grab my phone and lay down on my phone. I watch it until 4:30ish pm. So, I went outside and I thought I would just train duke some. He supposed to be my service dog. He has a slight fear of bigger dogs. So, I'm trying to figure that out. But he a really smart dog. After a few hours of doing that. It's like 6 ish. My sister gets home around 7ish to 8 because she goes to her boyfriends. And my dad goes to his work at 8. So I decided To just watch YouTube. I let duke come in this time. I grabbed something to eat and go back to my bed and eat as I watch some YouTube. I take my other medicine that help me to sleep and I play with duke and take him out and than my sister gets home. She does her homework and we talked a bit and than we both went to bed.
   Half way through the night. I woke up to this pounding headache and I felt sick to my stomach and my breathing got heavy again. 'Ugr' I got up only to fall down. Duke hops down and licks my face in worry. I lay down on my back and he lays down on top of me doing DTP (deep therapy pressure) and he stayed there until I felt better. I smile at him and petted him and told him "go to bed, baby. Mom's fine" he licks my face and jumps back on the bed. I slowly get up and crawled back into bed and cuddle back up. I check my phone and yawn. 3:20 am 'ugr' I grumbled and roll back over and cuddled with duke and fell asleep again