Thoughts Of Tia

sexuality

Growing up I always knew I wasn't just attracted to boys, but growing up I was scared to say that. I knew my parents wouldn't like that and no matter what some of my siblings would say I knew they wouldn't agree with it either. I was probably 10 or 11 questioning my sexuality and around this time i was religious. I forced myself to not like the same sex because i didn't want to burn in hell while my family would be in heaven. Now that i think about it, I was foolish. I made myself into this person I wasn't out of fear of the unknown. Now i'm 18 about to turn 19 and I'm finally able to be who I always knew I was.

Even though I can finally be expressive in my sexuality I am utterly afraid to tell my family. I told my one of my sisters and I know another one of my sisters got a feeling that I'm not straight but I know how my parents are. I rather keep it hidden from them in the hopes to not lose my relationship with them. Well I wouldn't really lose them, cause they would still love me but I know they wouldn't accept my sexuality.  A few years from now they would probably find out that I'm bisexual and my first relationship and kiss was with a female. They will also find out that I can't see myself with a guy even though I do find them attractive.

I just hate how sexuality is such a sensitive topic and I hope years to come people can finally come out the closet fully without being judged for who we love. Love is Love and society need to be more accepting of it.