New Beginnings (magcon boys)

Chapter 5

"Who are you in love with?" He asked looking down at me.

"You."

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"Are you sure." Nash said emotionless, loosening his grip on me. Disappointment filled my whole as I dipped down, swallowing my heart as it broke down to pieces. I shouldn't of said that, I've never acted this way towards him. I've hidden this secret so perfectly. Now I've messed it up, along with everything else.

"Ella." He spoke. I was now a few feet away from him standing up leaning on the rail looking down at the white soft snow about 9 stories down. Maybe it wouldn't hurt if I slipped.

"Yea." I mumbled.

"Sorry for my absolute oblivion to this, sort of feeling. I just didn't know I couldn't know, so the slightest feelings I ever had for you faded away at the signs of you never loving me back," He paused

"I've came to love you like a sister." I looked at the ice sparkle under the dim lighting on the roof top. The reflections of light made it more obvious. If only it wasn't obvious. One easy step and you could slide to the edge, maybe falling, knocking you out. Not knowing what's going on anymore, you could fall off the edge of the blood splattered ice. You'd fall into the cushioned snow entering heaven, or better yet, hell.

"Now what." I stuttered cuddling myself trying to stay warm. Maybe id be warmer if I did slip into another world. There was no answer from the blue eyed boy, for I was still looking over the railing not know that he had left a second after he said sister.

My head shot to the roof top door shutting behind him, leaving me in cold and sorrow.

If I was naïve I would leave again to a new place in self pity, or jump of this majestic building.

I decided to just go back to my room and cope with this depression. I asked for this, this is my fault.

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I woke up the next morning, I got ready for the terrifying day ahead of me. I put on a sweat shirt and jeans. I pulled out a cigarette from my drawer and lighted it out on my small balcony. I took small puffs inhaling the 'lung killing' smoke. I looked down at my phone as it buzzed on the ice covered table. Shawn was calling me.

"Hello." I croaked.

"Hey." I blew out some smoke.

"Are you smoking?" Shawn nagged.

"And you're not?"

"You don't smoke. You hate smoking."

"I also don't cheat on people. I hate cheating on people." I retorted.

"You don't have to be a bitch!" I rolled my eyes at my phone speaker and hung up.

"That went flawlessly." I said sarcastically to myself as I slowly through the cigarette off the balcony onto the snow covered surface.

"Whoops." I mumbled. I felt like a betrayed Disney villain, planning revenge on the beautiful girl and her prince, however I knew that it was going to be a happily ever after for them, not me.

I tucked away stray curls from my pony tail behind my ears. I walked silently back inside down to the lobby, smelling like smoke and tears.

I'd like to thank Taylor Caniff, Shawn Mendes, and Nash Grier for making me so entirely happy.

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