The story of us💕

The break up 💔😞

Well since the start of the week I've known it was gonna happen (people can't keep there mouths shut) but first I thought it was someone tryna prank me but a bit later they were being more specific so I slowly realised they were telling the truth. But I was fine because it hadn't become a reality yet, until Saturday 23rd of January, we met up at 1 all his mates were there cuz they were about to play out and I had Kayla (although tbf his mates are my mates to in a way)

He took me to talk (he was nervous) he said "well in the simplest way, you're umm you're dumped" so I asked why but imma keep the reasons to myself, but yeah then me and 3 people went off and my now ex went with his mates but we got bored and went to hang around (I wasn't awkward at all😂🤦🏻‍♀️🙄) I was heart broke what do you expect! But he made it more by walking away from his mates to go to some other random ones, I mean I seems rlly depressed so he came to talk to me at one point asking if I'm okay and stuff, then he said there's Summats else he were gonna say but he didn't know how to word it. So then most of my day consisted in me trying to find out. I had so many break downs when I thought about it too much but besides that people were keeping me distracted. Anywho after a while we all went to a different park, we were almost there and he tried saying he was gonna go home and walking away, I didn't wanna let him, at the time I didn't know why I didn't wanna but now Ik but I'll explain in a minute. But we were talking and I asked why he's tryna leave and he said that he wasn't quite used to it yet cuz we'd normally be hugging and things like that, so I just kept tryna tell him to come park then her ran (ugh) so I ran too and shouted to get him to stop eventually he did (we were only round corner from park). We were tryna talk again (people kept coming and getting in the way) and basically he said he didn't wanna come back incase he ended up asking me to date him again, because apparently the thing he didn't know how to word was that he still liked me a TINY bit and not enough to date me. I can't remember what else we were talking about but I won and he came to the park, after a while (we didn't talk that much at park there was enough people where we wouldn't really need to) but he's a spesh so he injured himself a little and was convinced that he could go home (nope) so I obvs tried to stop him and I kept blocking his path and he couldn't run cuz he was in a bit of pain, it came to point where one of our mates (mainly his) ran behind me picked me up and moved me, and I just cried again, I now realise it was because, although he may have dumped me already he was still there, but it hurt even more for me to double let him go just by simply letting him go home. But after I stopped I had a good time getting distracted by our mates.

After a while me and Kayla headed back to hers because I'm sleeping there, I got in the shower and ended up realising how much the water helps cover up tears cuz holy shit once I just freed my self and nobody was distracting me and I kept thinking about it, I was a mess. This is about it tbh we are still mates i guess I mean, we always have been mate dating or not, it just may take a while for me to get used to it. I'm not sure what else to say now, I've been awake and unable to sleep since about 4:30am.

Okay I think imma end this chapter here. Leave any questions or things you wanna say and I will reply in a final chapter 💔❤️😞