Today was our free time so Minari and I were just resting at our bed, basically being a bunch of lazy bums like we normally are when there's no practice or event to attend to.
The game that Minari was playing was hit at a pause, The television was on but in mute, junk food scattered in the table, our laundry still undone and the room preety much was a mess. We were arguing for quite a while now who would clean what until we got fed up and ended up undecided, lying in our bed.
Actually, I don't really feel like doing anything the past days if it doesn't involve working in the studio or practicing. I just want to be alone with my thoughts. I felt like a total mess.
"Yah Seunghyun-ah...Seunghyun...Yaaahhh..." Minari whined nochalantly over and over.
My back was facing him and He eating for the nth time. I was the one who felt sick watching him eat.
"Would you like some chicken pops? It's a new product. Just discovered it yesterday when I was food shopping." He tossed another pop in the air and it landed directly into his mouth. Minari was really good at this game.
"No thanks. I'm not hungry." I mumbled, hugging my pillow tighter to my body.
Minari sighed and turned to the side so that he was facing me. "Come on. Just one? You have been sulking since yesterday and barely ate anything. We are really worried you know."
I nudged his hand away and replied with a tsk. "Thanks for being thoughtful and all but just leave me alone."
Minari pouted slightly. "And you have been ignoring me lately, its uncanny."
I stayed quiet.
For a few minutes the room was finally in peace. Thank God this idiotic Minari noticed that I don't want to be bothered with stupid questions and gave up nagging me. I really wanted to be left alone with my thoughts for now and definitely was not in the mood to do anything as well. These past days, If I wasn't working, I'd be sulking like a lovesick fool. I was a good actor alright. Only the hyungs noticed it and nobody else. I could easily pretend that I was OK but deep inside, I was dying.
This angel had been clouding up my mind since I-don't-know-when with images and thoughts of her, I thought I was going mad. I was so irritated with myself that no matter how I tossed and turned in bed at night, I couldn't bring myself to get some shut eye. Resulting with dark circles forming underneath my eyes. No matter what I do, I just felt so restless.
But for some weird reason, I actually liked what I was feeling. I only wanted to have a clear picture of her in my head, reminiscing our happy time together, how her face radiated with beauty when she laughed at me and..and..how I let her slip away because of my stupidity. I messed up my hair once more as I thought about it for the countless time. I still can't get over the fact that I let her slip away just like that without making a move. Maybe this feeling will haunt me forever until I the day die. It will just never go away.
I guess for a moment there, my mind just got fed up and I was feeling sleepy and about to doze off. Finally. But my shattered dreams were bothered once more when Minari suddenly punched my back REALLY hard. It hurt so bad that the pain travelled from the spot that he hit to my shoulders.
"OUCH!!!!!!!! YAH! WHAT YOU DO THAT FO-" I yelled and sat up about to hit him back.
Minari interrupted me by inserting a pop in my mouth. I almost choked but when I tasted the spicyness of it, my eyes opened up.
I chewed as I spoke. "Yah...this is so goo- YAH! I SAID I DON'T WANT TO EAT ANYTHING!"
Minari ignored me. "It's so good right. I saved a bag for you. Take it!" He threw a fresh bag in my arms and I caught it in time.
"...and you know you can always tell me if something is bothering you."
I calmed down when he said that. I gave him a soft smile as I sank back in bed, contemplating with great difficulty on how to start.
"Its so stupid you know..." I began.
"I met this girl and she was everything I ever wanted...I know it..." I paused to sigh.
Minari had his full attention to me now. He was sitting indian style facing me, he was chewing the pop and was watching me like I was some action movie.
"Continue?"
I rolled my eyes at him. I told him about the kid, which he remembered perfectly, how Chaewon was related to angel, how I asked her out, our so called date at the park, lunch, finally how we parted ways and how dumb I was because I forgot to ask her name and digits because my eyes were too preoccupied from staring.
Minari's bag of chicken pops were empty now and it was lying and went flying off the bed. He was staring at me wide eyed like I was some person from outer space, his jaw dropped litteraly.
It felt like I had run a mile after telling him my story. My brows furrowed as I looked at him. My chest somewhat relieved that I was able to take everything out on him.
The next thing I saw, a smile was curling in Minari's lips. It became wider and wider until he cannot hold it anymore and he bursted out laughing. His insides were hurting now that he started coughing. He reached out for his half empty Pepsi and gulped a few before speaking.
"That...was...really...awesome...I needed that boost Songsari, thanks a lot...OH MAN! THAT WAS EPIC INDEED." He playfully threw a pillow to my face but I didn't shield myself away from it. I knew I deserved that. I shook my head in frustration and didn't know how to respond to that.
"I don't even have a single info about her or the kid that I can ask around. What am I going to do? I'm hopeless. Only a miracle can bring her back to me now." I messed up my hair again in irritation.
Minari already released all his energy from laughing so he just giggled this time. "Dude, I don't know how I can help you either. If only I saw how your angel looked like then its possible for me to help you find her. But there's nothing so really, I don't know either."
A knock from the door and manager hyung entered, his eyes widening at the sight. "Yah!!!! What sort of tornado came in here??? I am only going to say this once so clean this mess up!!!! Sleep early, tomorrow there is a schedule."
He slammed the door before I can even speak. I turned to Minari confused.
"Yah. What schedule? I was planning to go to mom's place tomorrow."
"That's because you were always staring in space during band meeting. Schedule tomorrow is a charity event. We will do a few songs and help in feeding hungry kids. Proceeds go to them as well."
"Is that so? Ok then. I'll call mom and tell her that I'm not coming anymore."
With that, we stood up and proceeded to clean and fix our pitiful room.
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