Breaking Dawn-Part 3.

Chapter 2

I sighed as,yet again,I failed to completely banish the invisible layer around my mind. That layer kept me immune to so many things- Jane's powers, Alec's powers, Aro's powers, Dimitri's powers,Edward's powers. I liked it that way. I preferred to keep my head to myself. But lately I've been trying to completely let go of that protective layer. Not because I thought it wasn't necessary. When it came to me, it was totally necessary. But because Edward thought I shouldn't rely on my powers. I couldn't force that layer out of me and protect someone else when I was tired. I had to keep practising that too. But lately I've been practicing how to fight if I didn't have my powers. I was supposed to feel how everyone else felt. I was just beginning to get how hard their lives were.

But there were some limitations for my immunity. I couldn't deflect physical attacks. And my powers didn't keep Alice from seeing my future or Jasper from messing with my moods. Alice wanted me to practice how to keep even her out of my head and Jasper wanted me to see if I can keep someone out physically. AND Emmet wanted me to practice physical combat. I was mentally exhausted in seconds. I was fairly sure I couldn't do all of them. But that didn't stop me from trying.

'That's enough for today Bella,' said Edward wrapping his arms around me.

'One more time?' I asked leaning my forehead against his.

'Bella, you're exhausted.' He said kissing my forehead.

'No, I can do this one more time.' I was exhausted. But i was just getting the hang of this. I had to do this.

'Be..'

'Please Edward?'

He sighed. 'OK, one more time.'

He was so distracting.I took a deep breath to calm myself. I still had to get used to breathing. My body rejected it. My lungs weren't expecting air. Weren't waiting for it. It reminded me that i was no lnger just human. But I liked the feel of oxygen swirling inside me. And it calmed me.

I imagined the thick invisible layer around my mind. Then I pushed it outward the same way I did to include someone else under my protection. I gritted my teeth and tried to break the connection between it and my mind. It was hard. Painful even. It felt like trying to cut off a nerve. Because this layer was a part of me. It was connected to me. To try and break the connection was like to peel off my skin. It hurt. But I didn't let Edward see I was hurting because if he thought I was in pain he would never have let me try it. I felt a snap inside my mind like a cord breaking and knew part of the connection was broken. It stung like someone had chopped off one of my arms. But I bit my tongue and pushed harder. I raised my hands and tried to physically hold out the pain. Another snap came. Then another. And another until the whole connection was broken. The invisible layer hung above my head for just a second before dropping on to me and making the connnection again. An involuntary whimper escaped my mouth before I could stop it. My hands fell to my sides.Then my knees went weak.

Edward scooped me up in his arms before I could fall. He then carried me into the house and put me down very gently on the bed in the room that used to be his. Still was his.

'What happened?' Asked Carlisle coming in and looking at me with concern.

'I'm okay.' I managed to say.

'You're not okay,' said Edward. He sat down on the floor next to the bed and hung his head. It hurt me to see him like that. I knew he was blaming himself.

'Honestly Edward,' I said sitting up. 'I'm fine.'

'I'm sorry Bella,' he said. 'There's no need to practice anymore. It exhausts you. Few things exhaust a vampire. This is pushing your limit.'

'Edward,' I said. 'Remember? I'm a magnet for trouble. Even vampirism can't lessen my magnetism.'

'Don't joke about this, please.' Said Edward in a pained voice.

'But I'm alright now.' I said taking his hand.

'Bella, it's my fault.' Said Edward. 'That immunity is a a part of you. Trying to break that connection can harm you permanently. I didn't realise it before. Do you think I've ever seen a vampire faint before?'

He was making a big deal out of nothing. I mean, I knew vampires didn't faint and all. But still it was nothing. I felt okay. I decided to let that argument drop for now. I didn't want to see him so hurt.

I dropped on to the floor next to him. I smiled at Carlisle. He nodded and smiled before leaving.

Edward looked at me. The eyes I loved were so full of pain it would have brought tears to my eyes if such a thing was possible anymore. I looked him in the eye.

'I love you.' I said.

'I love you too Bella.' He said rewarding me with the crooked smile that used to make my heart go wild. I missed my beating heart. But not beating didn't mean it wasn't there. I could feel it swelling with love for Edward.

'I know,' I said.

Then he closed the distance between us.

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Malki.