me and patty were completely opposite of each other. he had black hair and blue eyes with a darker fashion sense whereas i would want to wear pink, wherever we went. it was just how we were but lately something had been telling me that he didnt like me anymore because of how i was. i was currently sat on the floor whilst doing my make up
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i went for pink and black since i was feeling creative. normally i would just do a natural look. patty came into the room and looked at me for a minute before smiling and sitting next to me.
"you look really nice"
"thank you. hey i was thinking that we could go out for lunch today"
"erm. i'll check if i have any plans with the guys and then i can see if we can"
thats how it always was between me and patty, he always had plans with the guys so i was his second choice. i was fed up of it but there was nothing that i could do to change that. yes he had a career but he doesnt work 24/7 so some affection would be nice.
he walked out of the bedroom and then came back a few moments later telling me they had to go to the studio. typical. thats what they always say.
---time skip---
i was sat in an ice cream shop with Georgina, Ben's girlfriend. she was currently talking about how stressful her work was. she was a tattoo artist and i'd had a few tattoos from her before. her artwork is phenomenal and to be honest she might actually be my only good friend. she had been there for me when i needed her the most and if it wasnt for her i never would have met patty. i tolf her everything about our relationship apart from the things that stayed between me and patty. i told her about my most recent worry, the fact that i dont get to see anything of him these days and how i was just pushed aside in everything.
georgina's pov---
the fact that y/n was feeling pushed out by my husbands best friend was actually saddening. she was always the best for patty and he deserved her, or so i thought. she was so sad and to hear thet your own best friend feels alone its quiet irritating. when ben got home i sat on the couch with him and decided to ask him about why patty had been acting so different
"what is going on with patty, ben? y/n feels completely alone with him even when he's sitting next to her. no relationship should have to be like that."
"i dont know whats going on with him babe. normally him and y/n show more affection than we do and thats weird. but i keep hearing y/n try and make plans with him and he keeps saying we hae to go to the studio. i tried talking to him and he wont listen. i'll go over and talk to y/n now"
and then he left to go to y/n and help her feel less alone. and may i add the fact that im such a good friend and told him to take food to her.
pattys pov---
i walked in the house to be met with silence. normally when i came home y/n was playing waterparks but this was worrying. the house was never this quiet. as i edged closer to the living room i heard voices. it sounded like ben and y/n
"y/n you need to tell him how you feel"
"i cant. whenever i try and get time with him, he ends up at the studio. i can never get any of my feelings out. ive cried myself to sleep, so many nights in a row and this isnt going to help if i tell him how i feel."
"you shouldnt have to feel alone in a two way relationship"
"well i do. whether i like it or not, im just alone and the only people i truly feel like i have is you, georgina and my mum but my mum is all the way over the other side of the country."
i walked into the living room to see y/n with tears running down her face and ben holding her, the way i should be doing if she felt so low.
"ben"
he turned to look at me and shot daggers at me.
"what?"
"can i talk to you for a second please"
"yeah but whilst you do y/n is going to pack a bag and stay with me and G for the night so shes not alone"
thats when i knew i had messed up. like seriously messed up. i made her feel alone and i was the reason that she was crying. after i had finished talking to ben, y/n came downstairs and looked at me with tear stains down her face.
she went to walk out of the door with ben
"No y/n please dont leave, i want you. I want you in the most innocent way possible. I wanna hug you in front of everyone, I want to hug you whenever you're making food. I want you to hug me whenever I'm washing the dishes and I want you to kiss me without me knowing. I wanna come home from the studio and see you wrapped up in a blanket on the couch or come home from the studio to see you wearing one of my hoodies. I just want you. I want to love you without thinking that you've found someone better"
by now i had tears running down my face and i looked worse than what she did.
"i love you patty but i cannot go on feeling like im always a second choice to you. i know you're busy with recording but thats not twenty four hours a day for seven days a week. i come home from work and make you dinner, that dinner ends up in the trash because you dont come home until stupid oclock at night. and then when you do come home, i dont see you because you go straight to bed and you dont cuddle me like you used to. damn when was the last time we shared a passionate kiss? because i've sure as hell forgot what it feels like to have fireworks going off in my stomach when the person i truly love kisses me."
i walked over to her and cupped her cheek. i then leaned in and connected her lips to mine.
