Hold On *Adam Lambert fanfiction*

Chapter 8

A/N:soo guys I wrote like two chapters these days and I wanted to publish one today... guess what? It was freaking gone. Both of them.... I was like"well fuck I ain't gonna do that shit again" till imagination just punched me in the face at 1 a.m. :):) soo yep another chapter enjoy it... Please? =))

Kat's POV:

It's been a week since Neil's funeral and Adam was there with Tommy. I heard that it was about an overdose of medicines,drugs and alcohol.Why good people end in such tragic ways? Adam is absolutely devastated, he cried for days, not doing anything, just sobbing histeracly.He just broke in millions of pieces.  I never saw him so sad and it's killing me too, he was all this time an inspiration for me because of how happy and strong he was, but now I have to be strong,to support him,to put his pieces back together.

"Adam what do you think about another pick nick?" I asked laying in bed next to him.

"I-I would like it" he replied trying to smile at me. Ugh I have to remember myself "be strong,be strong" because seing him like this makes me  die.

"Katherine, thank y-you soo much ...for...everything" he said weakly.

"You don't need to thank me, you made me feel happy and proud of myself,  you took care of me for five years now,you did that for all of us,the glamberts. Now it's my turn, you deserve to be happy Adam,your brother sure wants that!"  He just stood there a few minutes looking at his lap, I was holding his hands all this time. He looked at me with puffy red eyes and smiled, not a big smile, but a real one. I was satisfied,  it was a start. I smiled back at him.

"I missed your smile" he smiled brighter now.

I packed lunch and we drove back to his place. As beautiful as the first time I saw it. He looked relaxed, and...happy... like some weight just got off his shoulders. We were both looking at the sky.

"I think he is up there looking at us ,thinking how lucky I am to have you here with me, or he is making fun of me like he always did"  he said with a slight laugh.

"Yeeeeah I think  he is making fun of your shirt with Mikey Mouse" I said laughing.

"Mikey is a new trend okay?"

"Yeah sure" I said rolling my eyes.

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"I'm sorry I think I was a pain in the ass all this week" he was now looking at me.

"No no it's not true, you were just...broken,it's okay.  It's okay, not to be okay, and I'm here for you, I will make you happy, as happy as you make me" I smiled at him.

"You already make me happy"

He was leaning in. He was getting closer and closer.

OH CRAP

HOLLY SMOKES

WHAT DO I DO NOW?!

OH GOD I CAN'T DO THIS

IT'S WRONG I KNOW IT

I quickly pulled him in a hug and kissed his cheek. OH GOD I WAS PANICKED.

"Let's, let's go home" I told him trying to smile. Adam just tried to kiss me.This is...no...I'm dreaming,I'm dreaming.

" Okay"he sounds kinda upset. GOD I AM SO STUPID!

He drove me to my house, I was quiet, I kept thinking about that moment. He doesn't like me, I am sure about that, he likes boys for God's sake, I have a lot of mixed feelings... Why would he want to kiss me? I was interrupted by the car stopping in front of my house.

"Are you sure you want to go to your house?" I asked him

"Yes I stayed enough I think you and your friend had enough of me"

"Again don't say that it was good to have company"i smiled at him.

"Good night Katherine, I..."

"You?"

"I am...really thankful for everything"

"Any  time Adam,Good night"

I got in my apartment,screamed and bit my lip like an idiot.

"What happened you freak?" Violet asked jumping on the couch. 

"ADAM!!"

"DID HE KISSED YOU??"

"ALMOOSTT" I said jumping up and down.

"Yep,freak.What do you mean almost?"

"Well he tried to kiss me...but I hugged him..."

"Agh you are soo stupid bae" she said face palming

"I KNOW THAT BUT I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT TO DO"

I keep asking myself if I did the right thing or not...