Tom Holland Imagines

3. I have questions

Warning: sad as heck honestly, or I'm just emotional but yeah if you're emotional you might cry, might.

Word count: 1219 amazing words of wisdom

Author's note: the title is a song and it's so good like holy crap it's amazing and so sad. By the way I'll make one sad and one fluffy/happy imagine so yeah. The lyrics are in italics.
Y/N is your name
Y/M/N is your middle name
Y/L/N is your last name
Have fun and enjoy 💞

Why did you leave me here to burn?
I'm way too young to be this hurt
I feel doomed in hotel rooms
Staring straight up at the wall
Counting wounds and I am trying to numb them all

I lay in my bed staring at the wall. Just thinking. He promised he would never do anything to hurt me and that he loved me. I was wrong and now I'm here hurting, the pieces of my heart stabbing me. My chest hurt, it was either from all the crying I did or it was a sign that my heart ached. I spilled every ounce of emotion to him, he looked like he was listening but obviously he wasn't. Because if he did listen, he wouldn't have left since I'm depressed. I cut myself, I hurt myself physically and mentally and the only person that has ever kept me sane was Tom, but now that he's gone I don't know how I'm going to survive in a world like this.

Do you care, do you care?
Why don't you care?
I gave you all of me
My blood, my sweat, my heart, and my tears
Why don't you care, why don't you care?
I was there, I was there, when no one was
Now you're gone and I'm here

He's probably at some club partying with a bunch of chicks and forgetting about me. He said he cares but he doesn't. I didn't have much for myself but I gave him everything that I had. I wasted my time to be with him when he was hurt. I thought I gave him happiness even when my life was dull and colorless. Tom left so I'm here sulking and hurting on my own, wishing a pair of arms would engulf me and a person would whisper sweet nothings to me so I could feel better but that's never going to happen to me because I don't deserve anything.

I have questions for you
Number one, tell me who you think you are
You got some nerve trying to tear my faith apart
(I have questions for you)
Number two, why would you try and play me for a fool?
I should have never ever ever trusted you (I have questions)
Number three, why weren't you, who you swore that you would be?
I have questions, I got questions haunting me
I have questions for you
I have questions for you (I have questions)
I have questions for you

My brain fills with a bunch of questions I wished I had the guts to ask. Who are you? Am I a fool to you? Why did I trust someone like you? Why did you have to lie about who you really are? These questions will forever be in my head, and they'll be left unanswered. Because you left too soon, before I could say anything. And for our entire relationship he always had a say in something but I never got to speak for myself ever. It was unhealthy. We were unhealthy and I thought that was love.