Tom Holland Imagines

5. I love you

Warning: Sad, rly sad. And slightly bad language.

Word count: 889 amazing words of wisdom

Author's note:
Y/N is your name
Y/M/N is your middle name
Y/L/N is your last name
Y/E/C is your eye color
Writing this made me cry because I'm a huge Billie Eilish fan and this song rly gets to me. So hopefully this imagine will get to you, whoops sorry not sorry! Hope you enjoy this imagine

It's not true
Tell me I've been lied to
Crying isn't like you
Oh-oh-oh
What the hell did I do?
Never been the type to
Let someone see right through
Oh-oh-oh

I was confused. Was it that easy for those three words to slip out of his mouth? Was I ready to say it back? Would I mean it? "I like you but I don't love you." Is all I said. That was enough to make him cry. It was enough to make me cry. We sat there crying, not daring to look at each other. Fearing that we would break down more than we already have.

Maybe won't you take it back
Say you were tryna make me laugh
And nothing has to change today
You didn't mean to say "I love you"
I love you and I don't want to
Oh-oh-oh

If only what he said was a joke. I did love him, so so much. All I wanted to do was say it back but what if he didn't mean it himself. What if he hurt me. Imagine us being in a fight and then me saying "I thought you love me." And him reply with, "I never loved you, I never have and I never will!" Imagine how I would feel. Betrayed. Sad. Upset. Angry. Not loved. That's the impact of what those three words could do to me.

Up all night on another red eye
I wish we never learned to fly
I-I-I
Maybe we should just try
To tell ourselves a good lie
I didn't mean to make you cry
I-I-I

I was a bitch to make Tom cry. He never deserved to cry because of me. He never even deserved someone as selfish and foolish as me. He was so much better than me. Once he had finished crying he stood up and walked out. Leaving me crying on the floor, regretting what I said. I was up all night trying not to cry and to actually fall asleep, but I couldn't. I didn't let myself sleep because I knew I didn't deserve to rest. I had to try to get Tom back. It was basically impossible because I'm so replaceable that he probably found another girl. But he meant what he said, I knew he really loved me, and I knew I loved him. So the chances of him moving on from me that easily was slim. I love him, but all this crying and hurting made me wish that we were never together, he was so much better off without me. I just so happened to run into his life, made him fall in love with me, only to hurt him. The smile that he gave me even when he felt like dying made it so clear that he loves me. Yet I was so blind and naive to except that he did.

We fall apart as it gets dark
I'm in your arms in Central Park
There's nothing you could do or say
I can't escape the way, I love you
I don't want to, but I love you

I knew he was never going to be together with me again. I didn't know how to except it, but I hurt him so much that there was nothing else I could do but say he could move on. But this was our last night together. We just sat on the grass in Central Park in each other's embrace, being in the moment as much as we could.

We stayed there until midnight. Before we separated I told him something I forgot to tell him. Oh how selfish I was to say it, but I told him I love him. His small but sad smile evident on his face, his glowing brown eyes staring into my Y/E/C eyes. His skin glowing in the moonlight he let go of me, walked away, stopped, looked back, and then walked away again.

That was the last time I ever saw the love of my life. Because five years later (if y'all watched Endgame you would know), he was standing with the love of his life, his smile bigger and brighter than I have ever seen it. I realized the man who had once loved me didn't anymore. And now I felt like the stupid one, to love someone who didn't love me back.

Sorry if I got kinda carried away, this hit me a lot. Listen to "I love you" if you ever feel like crying cos that song helps so much. Thank you so much for reading, I love you. Also I'm sorry I haven't updated for a rly long time, I'm going through a break up rn so this was just my way of letting everything out. But anyways stay tuned for more Tom Holland Imagines. Again, love you loads ❤️