Poetry

I'm (not) fine TW

a/n so as you can see the tw thing is in the title the list of tws is general crippling depression and suicidal thoughts.

    You all believe me as I rehearse the words I taught myself the night before, the very words i choose to write over and over again 'i'm fine' until the voices in my head finally went quiet the silence suffocating me as i choke on the tears i wish i shed the night before. I hear a noise outside the door and i look at the clock showing that its four, i wonder who would be here so early in the morning so i dry my tears and approach the door showing nothing but an empty hall. Making my mind whirl as i try not to jump from the wall that sits at the top of my house falling quickly quiet as a mouse. I drag my tired body to my bed and i dive into the world of dreams again.