Love Don't Change (Book 2)

Chapter 5

Mani's P.O.V

"I can't believe you kissed her back! Why?" Ally asks rather upset as she watch TV.

After what happened yesterday with Lauren, the first thing I did -after crying my eyes out- was calling Ally and telling her in between sobs that I needed her. I couldn't handle so much pain alone. So being the good friend that she is, Ally immediately arrived at my apartment. And it was pretty late, that's why I'm so grateful.

She didn't asked a single question, she just held me the whole night as I cried. But she knew the reason why. She always knows why I'm sad or why I'm crying.

Well there's always just one person to blame, so.

I had thousand of these crisis the first months where everything happened so I guess it's almost normal for her seeing me like that.

"I really don't want to talk about it Al." I weakly said, my voice hoarse after last night.

Her question has just a simple answer though.

Why I did it? Because I love her. I'm madly in love with Lauren. I couldn't resist the urge to taste her again when I had her right in front of me, or more like behind me. It was all her fault though, she knows perfectly that just one touch from her and I'm worthless. Besides, it has been so long. But her lips keeps tasting the same, sweet and delicious strawberry. Her hands keep touching me in that same way that drives me crazy, her mouth keeps moving in the same way against my lips and my body keeps reacting in the same way.

Feeling her again like that reminded me of everything we used to have and everything we lost.

There's no way back this time. I can't be with her again, it would never be the same, I guess that's what deeply saddened me, and maybe that's why I cried.

I feel so stupid now. Thinking about it, it was really dumb cry in front of her, Gosh and in the middle of the kiss. But I couldn't hold back my tears anymore, I couldn't hold back the hurt. The moment those soft lips touched mine I was lost. Besides the way she kissed me was dreamed.

But she doesn't loves me. At least not as much as I love her if she was willing to cheat. In the same day we got married if I may add.

Fooling around with girls it's what Lauren really loves, not me. People always say that a person can't change the way she/he is. I was just hoping that with time, she could change all her games for me, but it didn't happen.

"You need to stop this Mani, you know what she did on your wedding night!" She said serious to me. I threw myself back on bed, resting my head on the pillow and closing my eyes. This is so fucked up "You can't let this happen again." Ally finished standing up from bed and turning off the TV.

"I know," I think that deep down, that's why I called Ally in the first place. She is the first person to be against me and Lauren, she always has something bad to say about her. So maybe that's why I called, I always do the same. Just when I'm getting stupid enough, weak enough, running into Lauren's arms again without thinking anything, I call Ally to give me strength. Because I can't do this alone. Lauren has still so much power over me, that maybe even if she would had stayed a little longer, insisting, waiting for me to get out of the bathroom, we'd have kissed again.

It's so frustrating.

"You need to respect yourself Normani, she doesn't deserves you." Ally continued, walking to the crib where Bella is sleeping. "You know I'll love to stay here with you both." She smiles "But I need to go now, my show start in seven hours. You're still going right?" She asks me arching an eyebrow.