Tulisa and Toby

part 2

Tulisa has been with us for two days and as I closed the door I sighed, I wished Tulisa would trust me and talk more. But I guess I have to be patient with her, knowing what her past is. I just have to give her time and trust that she will come to me when she is ready. I am glad that she loves Toby though. At least she has a companion, I smiled at that memory when they first set eyes on each other. It's like they had an instant connection. Ever since then, Toby hasn't let Tulisa's side unless she has gone some where. It's just so cute watching them two play together. I hope sometime soon she will start trusting me and talk to me. Even if it's a little bit at a time. It will at least be some progress.

Tulisa is very shy and doesn't take to new people very well. I just hope that she will gain confidence and start to me and her dad even if its just say "yes" or "no". Just something to know that we're doing things right. One thing I know for sure is even if she doesn't talk we wont be taking her back to the care home,as we don't want to unsettle her again. I am falling more and more in love with her and class her as a daughter. Going to the beach helped us bond more and she even managed to giggle when I hit my hand with the spade. I am glad that she is starting to relax a bit. I was getting worried that she may not like it here. Deep down I know she does like it though. Especially when you see her and Toby together. She is such a joy to watch her play. I don't think I can ever go back to life without a child even if it was just for one day. I love children and always have. I just can not have one of my own so I adopt. I know it's a lot of money but I have heaps of love and no one to give it too. I have dreamt of having my own since I was young. I am thinking maybe start to get Tulisa to talk to us using pen and paper that she will gain confidence with us. As well as drawing and it might help along with the writing, maybe even playing board games or doing jigsaw puzzle. I am willing to try whatever to help her communicate and open up but I will never force her to do it. If I was to force her to open up to us, we would be back at the beginning. She is so cute when she plays tea parties with all her toys. Even I join in sometimes I make some cup cakes especially for the occasion of her tea parties. One day she will open up and we will wait patiently for that day to come Whenever it comes, it will be exciting to finally hear her voice.Just to hear he say mum or dad or Toby. Anything really. It will be amazing. I can't wait for that day to come, Well I guess it's time that I went to bed myself as Tulisa will be up soonish, well in the next 5 hours.