like a hostage - eilish

chapter 7

My mom was at work now so I didn't have to worry about her lecturing me for skipping. I went through the back door and up the stairs into my room. I put my smoothied clothes in a hamper with some other ones I needed to wash and headed downstairs.

After putting my clothes in the washer and starting them, I went to the bathroom and looked at myself in the mirror. My thoughts began rushing as I stared at the girl looking back at me.

ugly

fat

stupid

worthless

I shook my head and started some shower water. Not too hot, not too cold. I got in and relaxed as the water hit my skin. I cleaned my body and hair thoroughly then sat down in the tub facing away from the water.

I closed my eyes and focused on the water hitting my back. The sound of the warm pellets making contact with my skin. The peace. I could finally breathe.

I got out and dried myself off checking my phone. A small smile crept it's easy onto my face as I read Juno's text.

JUNO

I hope you made it home safely stupid bitch

I did dumbass

hope you did too

I chuckled and went to my room. I slipped on a pair of joggers, a black hoodie, and some Nike slides. I pulled my hair up into a ponytail and went on my phone again, checking all my socials.

I went onto Snapchat and clicked through boring stories, people asking for streaks, and videos of people eating. Then, something caught my eye. On some freshman's story, I saw the video of me getting smoothied.

The more I tapped, the more I saw people reposting it. I threw my phone to the corner of my room and covered my face with my hands. I sobbed uncontrollably, choking on my own tears. I stopped abruptly when I heard the house door open.

I checked the time on my phone.

6:38 PM

Mom's home. I gulped and wiped my face trying to get rid of some of the mascara stains. I got my phone out and turned on another one of my sad playlists and cried myself to sleep.

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I woke up to the sound of my alarm ringing in my ears. My eyes struggled to open as I smacked my phone trying to get it to shut up. After yesterday, I don't think I can go to school. I walked over to my bedroom window and looked outside.

I smiled when I saw my mom's car was not in the driveway. I walked back over to my bed and grabbed my phone to text Juno.

JUNO

not going to school today

damn is shit cancelled? swear my mom never tells me shit

nah I just fucking hate it there

understandable

i'll stop by after and bring you some sour patch kidzzz

ty omg ily

ilyt

I turned my phone off and smiled at Juno's kindness. She was always looking out for me and I couldn't ask for a better bestie. I opened my bedroom door and walked down the creaky wooden stairs.

Our house was old and definitely needed touching up but it was still home. I headed to the kitchen and poured myself a glass of water then sat on the couch and clicked through TV channels.

I stopped at a bratz movie and snuggled into the couch enjoying it. I giggled at a joke Sasha made then froze. Someone just knocked on the door. Shit fuck I really hope it isn't my mother.

I got up hesitantly and my jaw dropped when I saw who it was. Shit is that...

"Billie?"

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y'all heard wywg?

the errors and mistakes...this feels like english teacher hell