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Chapter Four: One last time

“Yelling at living things does tend to kill the spirit in them. Sticks and stones may break our bones, but words will break our hearts...” 

― Robert Fulghum

“Are you kidding me with this, Alfred?” I said as I shot a glare at the older nation. The Meeting was in two days and he just finally called Mathew yesterday to help us get me ready for the meeting. Even though I’ve been around for a good time, I have never been to one of the World Meetings. Alfred kept stressing that they were totally awesome, I decided to listen to Mathew on them.

We were currently in a suit shop, getting a suit for me to wear at the meeting, though I yelled at Alfred to stay outside it because I didn’t want him to slip his McDonald’s food and drink over any of the suits, I’m surprised I can even afford any of these. These were also one of the few days I’m allowed out of hospital, seeing as the doctors were worried that I would get worse if I spent too much time outside off the annoyingly bright white walls.

So, here were me and Mattie looking around at the pant suits, trying to put something together that would look good on me. We both knew that something that wasn’t greatly bright would work better in keeping my skin looking paler than it already is now.

“Hey, Mattie, what are the World Meetings like?” I asked him as we searched for my size in a light gray blazer.

“Chaotic. Disordered.” He let out a quiet sigh with a small shake of his blonde head. “Usually Arthur ends up choking Alfred or Francis, Russia will constantly ask to become one-“ he shuddered at the memory of the said person known as Russia. “-Romano likes to curse a lot, Italy will end up shouting out ‘Pasta’ before the meeting is over. Make sure to watch Germany, a tall blonde guy with icy blue eyes, once things get out of hand, he’ll lose his temper and yell at them all to shut up. That’s how they usually go.” By the sound of his voice, the meetings weren’t something he liked.

I thought about all this. I wanted to see all the countries at least once and hopefully leave more of a memory than just the ones that Alfred, Mathew, Francis, and Arthur…Then I remembered what Mattie said. Arthur chokes Francis and Alfred?! Why would he do that to Alfred?! I thought shocked but before I could ask, I was handed a light gray blazer with matching dress pants and a black dress shirt.

I wish I could just wear my military uniform but we haven’t had the time to really make a new one and I would end up going there wearing the same one Arthur has. I went to the fitting room and tried on the clothes, looking at the mirror in there, I just really noticed all my weight loss.

I am so tiny now, almost as skinny as those in the Opium Wars, it scared me. I stumbled back, staring at the mirror, trying to shake off this cold feeling. I knew I needed to gain some weight before the meeting, I’ll end up scaring the daylights out of everyone.

Changing back into my regular clothes of a (f/c) t-shirt with (f/b) logo on it and a simple pair of demine jeans. I walked out of the dressing room, looking over at Mattie then sighed. “Why didn’t you two tell me how bad I really looked?” I asked in a matter-of-factly tone voice, causing Mattie to a flinch a bit then run a shaky had through his blonde waves.

“I-I didn’t want y-you to worry about y-your weight, the m-meeting is enough s-stress on you, (f/n).” He said, looking guilty which made me sigh and gently pat his back with my free hand, the other one holding the clothes. “It’s alright. These are a bit baggy so we should get them then try helping me gain some more weight.”

“B-But the meeting is in two days. How are we going…?” He didn’t need to finish his sentence before his gazed moved to his brother, still sitting at a bench outside the store. He let out a sigh when he looked back at me with a bright smile on my face, knowing we both had the same idea in mind. I’m going to have to have the same diet as Alfred to help gain enough weight, but I will eat some healthy food as well because I know my body would probably look even worse with just that diet of hamburgers and sodas.