Storm.

Chapter 1

(2 years ago)

My heart is beating in my ears as soon as I wake up. I am sweating and heavily breathing. Please. Not this again. The same familiar feeling that has been haunting me in my sleep. So much that it has almost become a routine. 

"Are you okay?" Sam wakes up and sits beside me, she's worried, I know it by the tone of her voice and the way she's holding me. But I can't concentrate in her voice. Or anything around me for that matter. 

It feels like a thousand voices inside my head, they are all screaming, crying, they are all in sorrow, in awfull, terrible pain. They scream my name but I don't know how to help them.

"Liv! Liv!" Sam is screaming now, she shakes me and I hug her and cry, I cry because it seems to be like the only thing I can do to get this unknown pain out of my head.

"Stop it! Please stop!" Am I talking to the voices? Am I talking to Sam? I wish they could hear me too. They are driving me insane. And I'm slowly letting them.

I stay still for an hour until I calm down with my head blank, I feel like I can't think about everything but at the same time I'm having every thought I've ever had. I sit back up with Sam sitting beside me. I start to breath and control my breath. 

"I don't know how to help you if you don't tell me what is happening to you. Talk to me, that's what best friends are for." Sam looks sad, I know she may be worried, but its not like I know what is happening to me either. Neither the less, I never tell her what is going on. I haven't told anyone. I've learned not to trust anyone anymore. 

"You wouldn't understand, even if I tried to explain." And the thing is, there is no easy way to explain this, not even to myself. 

And I don't know how to tell her because, I don't know what is going on with me. Strange things have been happening, things I didn't knew were possible. How could I explain to her I can all of a sudden move things without touching them? Or how could I tell her I can get inside her mind? That I know what she thinks? How she feels? She would think I am insane, a monster. But I wouldn't blame her, I am insane. I would dare to say I myself am insane. Or maybe I'm dreaming this, and I'm trapped inside my own nightmare forever. 

It all started a year ago. The stupid dreams that wouldn't let me sleep at night suddenly became real. I thought it was a headache, it wasn't. I realized it wasn't when the pain causing the headache started talking. No, not talking. Screaming.

Screaming along another hundred voices. Tormenting me, day and night. If anyone ever gave me the opportunity to take this away, I would. I would over, and over, and over. 

"Come on lets go, it's almost time for breakfast". Sam's voice pulls me out of my thoughts as she stands up and heads to the bathroom. "I'm going to take a shower, and you should too. All that sweat has to go away."

I smile I little, that's why she's my best friend. She knows how to make me laugh when I feel like dying.

All the girls around me start waking up as well, I decide to take a shower before they get all crowded.

"I heard Maddie is going today." Sam says in a low voice.

"What? Did you see who?" I say intrigued.

"No, but I heard they were a couple. You know, a nice one. The kind we all want." I feel so happy for her. Sam helps me to braid my hair while we talk sitting on her bed. 

"That's so nice. How did she get so lucky?" I say.

"I don't know, it's natural for her, everybody likes her. With her cute little blonde braids and green eyes. I wouldn't blame her. I mean, look at me, with red curly head, brown eyes. I'm just boring to look at." She says showing disgust in herself.

"Hey! You are not boring to look at. Besides, looking at me should make you feel better about yourself. Have you seen my under eyes? Looks like I haven't slept in my 14 years." We both burst in laughter and I know we both feel better instantly.

We sit  together at the dining room and the tables start to fill in. Everyone talks until the doors open, letting us see the headmistress of the orphanage.
I'm just about to whisper something to Sam when she speaks.

"Olivia Storm, come with me please." Everybody turns to look at me, I feel my blood drop to my feet. This can't be good. I look at Sam hoping she'd save me. She can't. 

I walk towards her and we walk away from the dining room as we leave everyone behind.
Her office is usually where all girls get good news, but I don't feel like I'm getting that type of announcement. At least not today. I'm not one to get adopted, or congratulated. 

"There's something I need to talk to you about. I've been getting some complaints about certain behavior of yours. Do you know what I'm talking about?" She looks straight into my eyes so I feel the need to look the other way. I can begin to sense how she feels.

"No, I'm sorry, I don't know what you're talking about." I say.

"The girls come to me saying that they can't sleep because someone screams at night." I stop breathing and swallow my gulp. Oh no. I feared something like this would happen, I bet they'll send me into a room alone in the dark where no one can hear me. Or maybe even get rid of me. 

"I...I, there's been something going on with me, nightmares, or something like that. I can't sleep, well, at least not for a long time." My eyes get watery but I stop them before a drop falls. I don't want to let her see me cry. 

"If you continue like this, we're going to have to put you alone in a separate room. Is that what you want?"

"No." Anything but being alone. It is probably what I fear the most. Being alone in a room, only with my mind to keep me company. 

She doesn't understand, nobody understands.

"Then I think we're done for today, thank you." I stand up and walk away. Angry, I'm so angry. How could I possibly control it? I don't have the strength to do it, if I knew how, I would've done it earlier. 

I shut the door behind me and find Sam waiting outside for me.

"Are you leaving? Have you been adopted?" Sam says preoccupied but I can sense a hint of happiness in her tone, she feels happy for me, I only wish her thoughts where true.

"God, no. Someone told them about my nightmares, Sam. She is going to separate me if I don't stop." I sit down and try to calm myself, it feels like hell when my head starts going all over the place. 

"What? She can't do that! Can't she help you? I mean, she has to." Sam sits beside me.

"No, she doesn't. Nobody has to."