MonstaX imagines/scenarios

Changkyun - Hard Night (imagine)

This imagine includes some +18 depressive content. It contains cutting and alcohol. Please read at your own risk.

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You were in your bed, all lights closed, crying as loud as you can ... again. The blanket had a fee blood stains that were drying.

You always had breakdowns since your childhood. You could not get along well with your parents, your grades were not bad but not good either, you did notdissapointed people but you never really had an achievement either.

Yet today you had a fight with your parents again. Also your exam results were no good plus you haven't even started your homeworks nor your research paper that was due to tomorrow. Your soulmate was not at the dorm either.

You did not have a boyfriend because Changkyun and you did not liked naming things. Even though you did not named your relationship with each other you two would call, act as if you guys were married.

Today, since monsta x went to thailand for a day the guys were supposed to come really late. You and changkyun were sharing a bed So you did not wanted to bother him when he comes so tired, you took your pillow and blanket and was currently in the living room lying on the floor.

The little blood stains on the blanket were now fully dried, they looked brown. Just like the blood your tears were also drying. You slowly started to not be able to cry even though you could cry more.

You started thinking about them, especially hoseok and changkyun and minhyuk. You knew those three can be really emotional So you prayed that they never get as upset as you are right now.

Having a fight with your parents, not being able to do the homeworks as good as you want and not being able to finish them slowl made you drift into an negative world.

You were just a human trash, you were stupid, fat, ugly, talentless, selfish, needless and NEVER ENOUGH for anything. After all these thoughts with the emotional storm , yes you grabbed the scissors and strike a few lines on your wrist. They were not deep, they actually looked like scracthes that were almost not bleeding.

Changkyun have seen this side of you before and he was the one who stopped you when he saw you grab the scissor while entering the dorm at the same time. He hugged you, with ingaling his perfume and all the love at the time it seemed like the pain went away in a second. But today .... he was not here. There were no Changi to save you from you.

And you were laying in bed hopeless, tears dried, scracthed wrist.... You know you should not drink but you could not help yourself from getting up and getting one of the beers usually Shownu drinks before he sleeps. Your alcohol tolerance was low so You would be in bad condition if you drink even one beer can. you gulped it down like a shot. You were slowly getting dizzy when you noticed the blood stains on your wrist. You thought you could not let the boys see your wrist like that so bumping here and there with your clothes on you hopped in the shower. Youlooked at the watch on the wall but could not make it wheter it was 3 or 5 am. The boys should be here soon you thought turning the water on. The last thing you remember was you closingthe water and slowly sitting down in the shower.
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Changkyun and the members enters the home , everybody tired and wanting to sleep soon. While everyone goes to their room to change and sleep right away Kihyun scans the house. He sees the blanket anf the pillow.

-changkyun i think you should come here for a second.
He calls the maknae over to show him.

-I think y/n is either on her period or .... idk she might not be okay do you know where she is? Because there is a can of beer here too she might be drunk too.
Kihyun asks.

-I...I do not know she should be sleeping here buy i haven't seen here yet. Let me call her real quick. Changkyun grabs his phone in a hurry and dials your number.

A ring comes from under the pillow, kihyun lifts up and they both sigh.

-Hyung ... maybe she's in the room ? Or somewhere else? I'll look for her thanks.
Changkun says and starts searching for you.

After awhile he opens the door ofthe bathroom only to see you sleeping on the shower floorfully clothed, wrist cut. He looks at you shocked for a second and then goes back to his room to grab some stuff.
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You wake up to changkyun putting you in his bed and cuddling next to you. Since you do not have any power you can not even say a word or open your eyes slowly. You can feel the new pj which is changkyuns tshirt and a bandage over your wrist.

-Thank you Changkyun.... you don't have to do these for me, you should be tired enough yet you are here taking care of me ... I love you so much.
You mumble slowly.

Changkyun hugs you from behind grabing your arm and bringing it close to him kissing your wrist and then your cheek saying

-I love you too baby. But even if im not here please call me the next time when you are not feeling well. One can not pass all the obstacles by oneself so please reach out to me when i can not be here, o-okay? He says.
-and btw you were mumbling how you do not want us to be never sad and a few more things.... I'm happy as long as you are okay .... soo please donot hurt yourself. He adds.

-o-okay.... i dont know how im going to pay you back, i just love you so much. I owe you big for loving me.... i love you a lot. You mumble again.

-I love you too now let's sleep and we'll talk more about this tomorrow okay? He asks.

-hmmm not sure buuut okay. You say and slowly turn around to hug him and cuddle in his chest.

-Guys it has been a hard night but can we pleaaassseeee sleeep now. You hear minhyuk say from across the room in his bed.

-I'm sorry Minmin, i'll make it up to you tomorrow. Now let's sleep, good night. You say and getting back two goodnights from changkyun and minhyuk slowly drifting to sleep.

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This was a depressive, sad but happy ending story. Hope you enjoyed it. I would love to write more if some people will like it. Tbh i just wrote this cus i was feeling down and it kinda helped me ^~^ sooooi hope u just enjoyed.