Dean-Whoa,whoa,whoa!Slow down a little!
Sam-I AM NOT GONNA ''SLOW DOWN A LITTLE''!TELL ME WHAT DID YOU DO?
Dean-Damn!Can't a man just have his privacy?
Sam-(Y/N) IS CRYING IN HER ROOM SINCE SHE GOT BACK!I DON'T CARE ABOUT YOUR PRIVACY!
Dean-What do you mean?
Sam-Are you THAT drunk to not know what ''crying'' means?
Dean-I mean WHY is she crying?
Sam-I DON'T KNOW!YOU TELL ME!
In that second I heard footsteps getting closer and closer to my door.
Dean-Babe...What's wrong...?
When he said the word ''babe'' I just started sobbing and I felt every single tear like it would've been a knife in my heart.I am sure that they could've hear me...I just couldn't control it...
Dean-Hey...You know you can tell me everything....right?
That...that soft voice of his...It came back....I used to love it but now I hate it because I know that everything it's just a big...fat...lie...I didn't want to get out and face him...I...I needed time...I know I eventually had to leave the room....I just woke up the next day by the sound of someone knocking on my door.
Me-What...?
Sam-Got you breakfast!I noticed that you didn't eat yesterday so I figured you would be pretty hungry!
Me-Yeah,thank you!Come in.
We both sat on my bed waiting for each other to say something.
Sam-So...how are you holding up?
Me-I'm...better.But I don't know if I can stay here anymore...
Sam-Of course you can!This is your home too!
Me-Yeah...about that...Me and Dean...
Sam-Hey!Don't think about Dean right now,okay...?I don't know what he did to you but I'm pretty sure it was bad...
Me-He...he cheated on me...
I said looking at him with tears in my eyes.After I said the word ''cheated'' my mind began to rewind that awful image of Dean and that girl...I couldn't hold it anymore...I just burst into tears...
Sam-It's fine...Everything it's gonna be fine...
Little did he know that nothing is gonna be fine...After I've eaten Sam went to take a shower so I left my room to go see if Dean is home.I looked and he wasn't anywhere to be seen.I know what Sam told me...His words kept repeating in my head but I am stubborn...Dean always said that he likes it because I would always get what I wanted...But I don't know if he'll like it this time...I went to my room...Got a piece of paper and a pen to write the letter but right when I began to write Sam comes in.
Sam-Hey,I'm going grocery shopping.Need anything?
Me-No,I'm good...
A tear dropped on my cheek.I did not even realized it,but Sam did.
Sam-Um...Sure you're okay...?
Me-Yeah...I'm fine...
Sam-No!You're clearly not!
I said wiping away my tear.Sam came next to me and hugged me.
Sam-Talk to me...Tell me how you're feeling...It'll help,I promise...
I explained exactly what I felt.Sadness,anger and betrayal.It actually felt better but when the night came...Dean came home as well...He came right to my door...
Dean-Babe...What's happening...Why aren't you talking to me...Please just open the door...please...
He started crying...I just placed my head against the door and cried as well...
Me-I would...Believe me I would...But this already hurts a lot...
Dean-I can make it better...Please just open the door...
Sam-She's not gonna open the door.At least not for you!
Dean-Why not?
Sam-Let me see...Because you freaking cheated on her!
Dean-No I didn't...
Me-YES YOU DID!I SAW YOU WITH MY OWN EYES!
In that moment I took my headphones,put myself to bed and started listening to sad songs...Thinking about my shitty life...That night I did not sleep because I couldn't stop crying.When the sun started rising I began seeing the piece of paper and the pen...I changed and began writhing the letter...Put in in my pocket and I just left.This time nobody is gonna stop me.I stopped at the closest motel and then ended my life.
This is what I was thinking about for the past 30 minutes.Just sitting on the side of this beautiful lake and thinking about how and why my life ended.A tear wanted to drop on my cheek but I didn't let it.I didn't want to cry anymore.I cried enough.My phone was ringing but I ignored it.I know it was one of the boys.I don't want to kill myself anymore because I saw that it is meaningless.That means that I am better now...right?Not really...The only thing that I don't wanna let it happen again is letting myself feel how I felt.And the only thing that could help me is...becoming a demon...Because sooner or later my past would get me.But if I am a demon,it can't.I got up thinking about a crossroad around the area only to turn around and see Sam and Dean.Dean hugged me immediately.I can't lie...I enjoyed it...
Me-Okay!Let me go now!
Dean-Where are you going?
Me-I'm going to do what I should've done instead of killing myself.
Sam-What?
Me-Becoming a demon!
Dean-I know why you want to do it.But just come home with us...Please...
Me-Why...?
Dean-Because it wasn't me who ''cheated on you''!
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What have you done? (A Sam and Dean Winchester story)
FanficYou are walking on a street.Why?You don't even know,you don't remember anything but your name...You saw a diner and decided to go in.Inside were two men who looked strangely familiar... -(Y/N)?Is that you? Who is talking to you?What will happen next...
