Two Gay Guys in the City

Eppisode three Ryland's inner monlouge

Art created by: Stitches for my love. Thank you for the beautiful artwork!

My brain is constantly pounding like someone hit it with a frying pan. Sometimes I wish my body wasn't so frozen and my lips could move. My body is as broken as a shattered tea cup. I'm physically ok but in a mental state my brain is fucked. I hate when people ask me how I'm feeling and I just have to smile and say "I'm fine." I'm never just "fine". My life has be fucked since day one. My parents left my sister and I on an orphanage door step and at a young age I would be bullied for the way I acted and because I would draw on my nails. My sister tried to stand up for me but she was only a baby. I'm about two years older that her but she acts like an adult and I act like a child. Elementary school was a fucking mess. I got pushed on the playground so instead of playing I stayed inside and drew pictures of demons. I had to go to a physiologist and physiatrist and had to take an abundance of meds. It sucked ass. I was just being me. I wasn't depressed I was just a morbid kid, you know. In middle school my sister and I got adopted and had to change schools. We got adopted by two women. Riley and Alison Wilson. My sister Arely and I moved into a huge house and went into a private school. It kinda sucked at first because everyone was way too smart and rich and I just wanted to punch everyone but then I made some friends and fit in. Ha, no that's not what happened at all. I did make friends but we mainly ditched and smoked pot behind the school. It rocked. We would play rock music and give each other had jobs. We were supper gay emo kids. Yeah it was great. What did suck is that my sister got bullied a lot but then she met Morrow. Morrow is her now girlfriend. But like they became best friends and then I became friends with her brother, Grey. We became really good friends and then he went off to collage and I went to art school. Morrow and Arely moved in and then Grey and I made out and had sex...great sex. But then we moved into his parents NYC apparment and yeah that's where we are now I guess.  I mean nothings really has happened since we had sex. I mean more sex. We're just your average insane gay couple. We love each other. I mean we're thinking about getting a kitten. I mean I'm not sure. We both work everyday and then I go to the bar after work and then we have sex. I mean we're pretty busy. But like I don't know I think we need to mix things up I mean that's at least what Grey says. Uhh, I'm boring myself and you guys are probably just thinking go have sex already. Which I would. BUT GREY'S ON A BUSINESSES TRIP AND IM GONNA DIE. I miss him sooooo much I'm sooo lonely. I tried going to my sister's apartment but she's busy too. But I mean I might just break in and play with her dog. Take him out, go shopping. I could crash an off broadway musical or some shit. But I do need to get lunch. I'm starving. Yeah. Uhggg I need burritos, but I'm so fat. I'm way too fat. I should just get a salad. What ever I don't give a shit. Oh I'm starting to grow my hair out. Grey kinda hates it but fuck him. I text him every. He's in California but I don't care. I face time him and call him. And tell him that I'm buying him pop tarts. He looovvesss pop tarts. So I'm packing the pantry with them so when he comes home he'll be happy. I'm gonna buy him some sweaters too. Like couples sweaters. So we can look cute for St. Patty's day. We're also getting ready for his birthday. His birthday is March 11th and he's turning 27 and we gotta go all out because why the hell not. It's gonna be fun. We'll go to a strip club and buy lots of pop tarts. It's gonna be fun. But anyways this just turned into a random rant. Good job getting this far. I bless you. You beautiful gays. Or straights. I don't judge. Anyways yeah that's me I'm a morbid, dick loving, stupid gay. That's me.

Thank you for reading this monologue. I hope you enjoyed it! Please let me know if you want more of just Ryland's inner thoughts.