Faded

Chapter Four

"Arriella! Arriella!" Mary screamed, as I make my way racing down the stairs. She then kindly asks "How did your day go?"

Oh wow, I guess today isn't all that bad.

Right before I could give an answer about how messed up my day was, she slid into the kitchen and definitely didn't hear a single word of my rantings.

She comes out and as usual I know what she wants me to do. She says "You know the drill," as she lets go of her body and falls to the chair then stretches her feet, and I soberly reply "Yes mum."

Oh yeah, of course it's a foot rub for the next one hour. So much maids in the house and yet I'm the perfect fit for this job. She probably wants to use it as a reminder that I'm not really her... you know, 'Her child'.

Thirty minutes gone and anytime I try to bring up a conversation she shuts it down saying all she wants is peace and silence, that she's so stressed out.

Why do I even try?

She definitely doesn't know anything about me. All she probably knows is my name and my age. I doubt if she's noticed that I've never brought a friend over.

I finish the foot massage and began walking towards the stairs, then she calls me back saying "Your teacher called earlier while I was on my way back home. He said you skipped the welcoming conference. Why is that?"

Who else other than the one teacher that hates me for rejecting him, when he tried to make out with me, would give her this information. I Reported him to my mom countless times and all she did was ignore, but now I skip a conference and all hell is let loose.

"Did he skip out the part where I fainted and I was unconscious and had to be taken to the sick bay?" I said with anger boiling inside me.

"Excuses every time I really don't want to hear anymore of this" Mary said. Not being surprised that she didn't care if I was in the sick bay, "Of course you wouldn't care if anything bad happened to me." Then Mary asks "What did you say?" While she was surprised and at the same time confused by what I said.

I was about to rage out but I couldn't. She's the one putting a roof over my head. I huffed and raced up the stairs grabbed my hoodie and stormed out the door.

The anger kept eating me up from the inside, so I guessed taking some ice-cream would probably cool my head down. I walked to the ice cream shop, got on the queue, paid, and then left the shop.

Upon leaving the shop I set my eyes on Paulina and her minions leaving the store opposite the ice cream shop.

Oh no! So many bad things just had to happen.

I tried so hard to make sure they didn't see me, but of course one of her minions, Stacy, spotted me and wasted no time to cross the road to come piss me off some more. Then it's two enemies walking on a path: 'the bullies and the victim'. Three against one? Really ?

I tried to brush them off with the 'I'm not in the mood' statement and it just bounced right off their ears. I knew there was nothing I could do other than to stand my ground.

I make my way for a nearby alley and still persistent they follow, "You're really so stupid. You just realize it's just you and me right? No one can save you now." Paulina said.

Why does she always bother me?

Angered by her statement, I clench my fists and prepare to attack but it's three against one.

Sigh..I know what's coming.

I stand there and take everything like the worthless coward I am.

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I sneak into my room at nine pm. I then crawl to the bathroom and clean my bruised and bloodied face. I hope he isn't awake. I don't know if I can take another round of pain. I really don't know why I take any of this or why all this has to happen to me.

I want to end my life.

I lay in my bed and cry myself to sleep with a certain blue eyed boy on my mind and hope of a better day. A better life.