The Fade

Chapter 4

By the time I wake up, I'm no longer in a car, but instead laying on a bed under a blanket. A large t-shirt on my body.

As I slowly sit it, I become aware of my actions, and while I feel slightly worried what my family will think of me, I barely feel any regret. It's almost as if it was meant to happen. Is it wrong to sleep with someone when you don't know their name? Should I have fought him instead of just letting it happen? What will people think of me now? What if I get pregnant?

Panic sets in, and I begin to question all the diseases I might have. How stupid can you be Ronnie!? Loosing your virginity to a complete stranger in a car is something you'll never live down. 

What is Alexander going to think of me?

"Alexander will be angry, but he will forgive you." The voice comes from the open doorway, and my eyes snap to the man.

For a moment I stare, entranced by his partially guarded blue eyes, his words spoken with truth. I feel slightly embarrassed of my previous actions, almost ashamed. For a moment I worry about what this man will think of me.

Does he think I'm a slut? What if he just throws me out without my clothes? What if he regrets what we did? 

"You know Alexander?" I ask with a frown, confused as I've never met this man.

"He's my brother." He declares.

Instant nausea hits me, and I feel myself paling rapidly. Brother...brother? They're brothers? He's my brother? Why the fuck is happening? How could this happen?

"I...we...oh my...I'm gonna throw up." I breathe, leaping off the bed quickly and grabbing the closest thing to catch my insides.

The trash can. I empty my stomach out, dry heaving afterwards.

"Wait, I'm not your brother." He abruptly growls at me, as if realising why I'm suddenly faint and ill.

Taking the tissue he offers me, I wipe my mouth before straightening myself out. What is he talking about? If he's Alexander's brother, then he's my brother too.

"I thought they would have told you by now." He states, a slight frown on his face like he doesn't understand why they didn't tell me whatever it is they need to tell me.

"Let's get you cleaned up, then I'll explain everything to you." He offers me his hand, to which I simply ignore.

Completely humiliated, embarrassed, ashamed, disgusted, horrified, angry, upset, and confused, I follow him as he leads me to the bathroom. Keeping my eyes on the ground the entire time, unable to look at him.

What is mom going to think now? There's no way in hell I can ever tell anyone about this. What if people find out? My god...can i go to prison?

"Everything you need is in the cupboard, toothbrushes are under the sink. Are you hungry?" He questions.

"No." I mutter.

He knew about us being siblings the whole time? What kind of sicko does that?

"Before you get the wrong idea, we're not in any way, shape or form related." His tone clear as he closes the door behind him.

We're not related? How are we not related?

Deciding that it's probably best to not give myself a migraine, I strip off and step into the shower cubicle, turning on the hot water. Instead of worrying or questioning I simply ignore my feelings and thoughts. Once I'm clean, I turn off the shower and wrap myself in a towel, heading over to the sink to brush my teeth and hair.