Where it all Began

"I had the chance
but I let it miss.
I should've been braver
And asked her name
But I didn't.

Now I'm here laying in this bed.
Regretting everything i didn't do.
But I cannot change the past
And it left me with a big scar.
One that reminds me everyday of how stupid I am.

I've searched for her.
Patiently waited at the same stop,
And rode the same bus
But i never saw her again.
Perhaps, this is really the end.

But a part of me is still glad.
I may not know her name,
Held her hand
Nor got the chance to even talk to her.
Still, she's one of the best things that happened to me.

My friends say that I'm being stupid
And should try to move on.
I tried. I really did.
But every time I try,
I always end up running back to her.

They say it's impossible to fall in love  with the person you don't know,
But i just did.
It might sound absurd to everyone,
But I don't mind.
I love her and it's the truth"

You love her so much grandpa do you?
I asked as I wiped my tears
"Yes. Very much"
He replied while smiling.
It was the first time that i saw him smile in months.

He sighed.
"Remember your promise" he said.
"I will" I replied and tears started to roll down my cheeks again.
"Thank you" he said and closed his eyes.
And the deafening sound of the heart monitor filled the room.

Days passed and now I'm here.
To the place where my grandpa sees her.
But only on Tuesdays every 6 am.
This is it.
The place where it all began.

So i waited at the same stop.
At the same time,
And at the same day.
A bus stopped and we got in.
I sat on the vacant seat and looked at the window.

"Excuse me, would you mind if I sit next to the window?" A lady asked.
I looked at her and said,
"Sure. No problem"
I stood up and we exchanged seats.
Then the bus moved.

"You know, you remind me of someone" she said.
"He's probably the same age as you when I first saw him"
"You look like him although I don't know his name"
"I wonder where he is now" she added.
And instantly, I knew who she is.

This is her.
The lady he loved the most
Until the very end.
The Lady in Red.
So I gathered my courage and asked "Excuse me, would you mind if I ask your name?"