If you don't notice
The fake smile I show
Or that laugh I have learned to perfect
That I don't care about
The things I used to love
If you don't notice
I tend not to talk as much
Or that I pretend to be part of the conversation
That I hide my battle wounds
From the people I hold dear
If you don't notice
That I have changed
That I don't eat as much as I should
Or that I sit in an empty house all day, negotiating with my inner thoughts
If you don't notice
That I always answer with I'm fine
That I don't cry in front of you as I can't show I'm weak
That if I pretend everything is normal and keep acting like everything is fine then everything will soon return to normal
If you don't notice
That I've stopped messaging you as much as I use too
Or that I'd rather be home in bed all day than go out with my friends
If you don't notice were we ever really friends?
