$100
Once a month.
S̤̮h̤̮e̤̮ t̤̮o̤̮l̤̮d̤̮ m̤̮e̤̮ o̤̮n̤̮c̤̮e̤̮ a̤̮ w̤̮e̤̮e̤̮k̤̮.
I dont deserve it.
No, not once.
S̤̮h̤̮e̤̮ t̤̮e̤̮l̤̮l̤̮s̤̮ m̤̮e̤̮ t̤̮o̤̮ j̤̮ṳ̮s̤̮t̤̮ s̤̮p̤̮e̤̮a̤̮k̤̮.
$100
Bills and trips
Receipts and papers
M̤̮e̤̮a̤̮n̤̮i̤̮n̤̮g̤̮l̤̮e̤̮s̤̮s̤̮!
She makes up lies.
Says we're still poor.
She let me starve.
S̤̮h̤̮e̤̮ l̤̮o̤̮c̤̮k̤̮e̤̮d̤̮ t̤̮h̤̮e̤̮ d̤̮o̤̮o̤̮r̤̮s̤̮.
She killed my birds.
But, he did too.
She says "I love you"
.... A̤̮n̤̮d̤̮ I̤̮ d̤̮o̤̮ t̤̮o̤̮o̤̮.
She says its insurance.
She says its not her fault.
She says she wants to help me.
S̤̮h̤̮e̤̮ s̤̮a̤̮y̤̮s̤̮.... A̤̮ l̤̮o̤̮t̤̮.
She says im faking it
She says theres something else
She says theres something wrong with me
She says she doesn't like what im doing
She says she's scared of me
She says I love you.
I say it too.
But god, I cannot wait to die.
For those bombs to drop
And mushroom clouds to fill the sky.
For wasteland to take Concord.
For trees to rot away.
When creatures, rabid, wander
When I can finally say
Goodbye. Ive hit the limits.
And fall into the void
Where happy colors greet me,
The lonely stardust boy
YOU ARE READING
The Stardust Boy
PoezjaHe said "I love you" with such certainty it didn't seem possible For him to drift away again. To dust, to stars To death.
