Disparate life (On Hold)

million dollar question and answer

I kept on running , searching for Sala.  I was regretting for involving her in lyn's dilemma.I didn't want her to suffer like this.I brought her under my wing to protect her so why am I doing this?

My inner thoughts started to overload my mind with all sorts of concerns.

At last I found her, bending  on her knees crying like a lost child around the turning point at the road.I called to her. She tried ignoring but couldn't stay much longer. She looked at me like some wild cat with huge ruby eyes. She looked confused and hazy. She asked me the million dollar question pleadingly "Ray, please tell me who is Lyn?". She was hurting inside ,I knew that but I couldn't afford to break her heart more than it already is, I felt sorry for her so I changed my mind.

 SALA'S POV 

I'm scared and confused. I don't want to be left alone but I don't want to hurt Ray either.

Back then when I was in vegetative state I heard Clê and Ray talk about that Lyn person.she even said that I looked like her.I wonder if he is treating me kindly because I remind him of her. Maybe I'm really hurting him afterall. But why????

Why am I feeling this prick in my chest? Every time he talks about Lyn my chest hurts. It's as if someone just ripped off my heart. It pains me even thinking of Ray and Lyn' s relationship.

Suddenly I heard Ray calling my name from the back of the road.he looked worried even though I'm being such a pain. Why does he look at me like that?

Perhaps he really sees me as Lyn or maybe he feels guilty for not caring for her.I can't keep these feelings hidden anymore. Out of anticipation I asked him bluntly "Ray ,please tell me who is Lyn". Ray's face turned pale when I asked him.

Hastily he tried to evade my question. He changed the subject all of a sudden.I knew it was something he didn't want to tell me but I didn't think it was that secretive. I repeatedly asked him the same question I didn't care about his feelings I felt like a toddler. I was so desperately curious.

Finally he looked like he was going to reply , instead he patted on my head in the same gentle way he did when we first met and said calmly"let's continue this at home. shall we? it's not good for you to stay in the dark,right?"with a nervous smile.I guess his secret was really important after all.

as the sun slowly dispersed into the darkness of the night it seemed like the world was falling into its slumber as well meanwhile my drama was just beginning. 

I could see from his back that he wasn't sure whether to tell me or not.anyway we went home , had some luxurious tea time (not really it was really tensed) .  Then at last we sat down and started our talk. Little did I know what ray will be telling would be a life changing revelation.

"Sala listen um ....I don't know if I should really be telling you but about what you asked I'm more than sure that our relationship is not what you think it is.Lyn is my half sister and that's all there is to it so don't worry ok?" I felt a sense of relief. " what is so secret about that Ray? ..seriously !!" snickering into bits. I slowly climbed up on his back and enjoyed that brief moment .

For some reason it kind of felt off. Ray should be relieved as well but he still looked tensed.he held my hand and put me down to his lap.gently hugging me like a teddy bear I felt warm.then he said softly beside my ear"the part you should be nervous about is the latter part sala " I started realizing something that the serious part hasn't even started. Ray continued his revelation. "Lyn is also the woman who gave birth to you"

With those words my whole ephemeral dream came crashing down."What the hell are you saying ?are you saying I've been enduring my whole life with strangers." My anger burned with uncontrollable fury and sorrow.I couldn't control myself. 

Before I knew it, tears began flowing down like a gushing stream. Ray held my face up with those big but slim hands I wanted him to comfort in anyway he could.I just couldn't take it anymore. My mind was in a blank."RAY PLEASE .....JUST HELP ME" I begged him.

He slowly brought me close to him and gently rubbed in his forehead against mine."I know ..sala believe me ....I know"