I never thought I'd fall in love so deep and so hard for you. When I've taken you for granted when I first saw you.
I am not sure why, but your voice became an addicting song to my ears. Maybe it's because of your husky sleepy voice that awakened my soul.
I can’t remember when, but you suddenly became so good-looking in my eyes. Maybe it's when I saw how much effort you put in everything you do.
I don't know how I started admiring you.
Maybe it was when I died laughing
at your foolish behavior.
Or when my heart got broken
when I saw you cry for the first time.
Or when I got mad when people said
bad things about you.
Because though we're not close,
I know that you're a good guy.
I know that you're a kind guy.
Yes, we're not close.
Or shall I say, I know you.
But you don't know me.
I am just someone who admires you.
But I am no one to you.
Yes I know you.
I know you're nervous
when you hold your chest.
I know you're tired, scared,
or angry just by looking at your eyes.
I know you always work hard,
so much til your nose bleeds.
It seems that I know everything about you.
But you know nothing about me.
Yes I admire you, not just because you're handsome. But also a gentleman.
I admire you not only because you're kind.
But also because you're smart.
Yes I admire you.
But you who I admire doesn't
even know that I exist.
You don't know my name
though your name is always on my mind.
You don't even know how I look,
though I always look at you.
Can you help me stop admiring you.
Can you help me save myself from you.
But I'm okay with just admiring you.
Because I am no match for you.
I won’t ever forgive myself if you'll be with someone like me.
So I'll just continue looking at you from somewhere you can't see.
I'll just continue listening to your voice.
I'll just continue waiting for your smiles.
I'll just continue admiring you.
@manawari_
