DEIMOS (Alpha of Alphas)✔️

His Past and His Truth

Her blonde hair seemed like gold that sparkled in the sun plunged over her shoulders. Her eyes blue like two sapphires, hidden often showing a peek beneath her thick lashes and her lips plump and red that seems blossom soft in a pout. 

Delicate ears framed a button nose. A set of dazzling, angel-white teeth gleamed when she smiled. Her body sculpted by the gods gifting her with thick hips her curves that would make any male fall on their knees to have her. This is Theia, her beauty so bright that sometimes I feel the need to cover my eyes from the aura she gives away.

I sometimes wonder why some are blessed by the moon goddess and seem to have "perfect" everything, while I wallow in my self-pity breaking apart lying on the ground bleeding and no one seems to notice. No one... including your mate. It's a slow death. It's like you are burning yourself from the inside as that's the only way you can stop yourself from crying out. You who are meant for greatness happily walk into the cage you built for yourself.

Days have passed since Theia has been here. Each day is haunting, making me not want to wake up in the morning just so I don't see them. Every morning they run together and I can't help but feel jealous. It's not normal envy, it's a painful one. She has everything with him that I need as a mate. 

I stopped running these days, just so my eyes don't have to take in their scene. I can't take it, I can't take the pain every time he looks at her gently and chuckles softly to her jokes. Every time she touches him and every time he touches her they are slowly peeling away my flesh, leaving me bare to the heart-wrenching pain that follows.

But my wolf pushes me to gather strength often telling me we can overcome this, but she's stronger than I am. The difference between us is that she stands tall while I fall apart. So she lends me her strength for today, for what is to come. She is preparing me for something, I feel it in my bones. My heart is wary and my mind is cautious. I don't know if I am ready to take it head-on. But I know I must do this. To find out about their relationship. I need peace.

Going down for breakfast, the pack has gathered at the table. My eyes scan the room searching for Deimos and widen I find he is not present. He is not here and so is Theia. Sitting at the right head chair of the table I wait with the other wolves. 

The Luna waits for her male who is dallying around with another female. But I keep my head high, back straight. I am Luna and I will act like one. The tension around the room is disrupted by a door opening and the high pitched laugh of a female, a female I can easily recognize. Theia. So my sensations were right, they were together.

They stop mid path eyes widening when they see us all at the table. I feel Deimos's eyes on me, but I spare this male not even a single glance keeping my eyes straight on the table. Clearing his throat he walks to my left and plops down while Theia sits on his left, a seat specially saved for her. A seat she didn't have to fight for, something that was given without a question when asked.

"I apologize for the delay, I barely knew the time that passed by. You may all start eating." Deimos's loud voice booms across the hall and with those words he stabs my heart as always. Didn't know the time that passed by? How long were they together? Does she keep his mind that busy? That he can't think of anything but her and what they were doing? My lips wobble, my shield will fall soon. My thoughts are interrupted when I take notice of Theia's ring. She wears it on proudly. The colour of the ring reminds me of something but I can't seem to remember it.

I keep feeling both Theia's and Deimos's eyes on me throughout breakfast. Deimos is probably wondering why I am so quiet and why I haven't looked at him even once. Well, let him figure it out. I have no words for him until I find what I'm searching for. Finishing my meal first before the others I get up, the screech of my chair against the floor catching everyone's attention. Silence takes over the room.