"You, by the light, Is the greatest find, In a world full of wrong, You're the thing that's right"
I was at my room, locking myself; I really don't want to see any mistakes of the outside world, the terrifying acts that have been shown to me. It hurts so bad that I can't really take the pain. The world that only makes my heart break into pieces, I still don't what to do, I'm in mess, I don't want to see the world full of misery, misery because of me.
Months have passed when I decided to go out and check what is happening in the world of my own, the misery that I made, is it already finished, did someone solve it? What will happen if they still hate me? How am I going to live like this? Is it wrong to love? How pessimist am I?
As I went outside of my room, the house was full of silence, no maid, no butler, no visitors; no one is here at the big house but me. I felt weak, feeling the feelings that they just left me alone. I go down to the kitchen to look for some foods, but it seems that they really left me with no food. "I-I guess I have to buy my own food," I said weakly.
I was too scared of going outside to left the misery that I made in my world, I was in my normal attire, I get my keys and drove my car to somewhere, where I can think, where I can I have my own peace of mind, not minding them.
I was sitting on the bench with a sandwich and a cup of coffee on my side, enjoying the scenery that I am watching on. And I guy showed up with a smile on his face, I don't know but his smile melts my heart, I've been longing to see a smile like that. I didn't notice that I was staring at him for a long time that made his smile fades. "Hey Miss..." he called me, I am still staring at him but for the second time, he called me I was caught off guard "I-I'm sorry," I said immediately, I get my cup of coffee and my sandwich and went away from him. I was trembling without reason, my heart beats remembering that he called me.
"I still want to see that kind of smile," I said to myself, my heart beats is in normal again, I finished my sandwich and the cup of coffee that I have, I looked for my handkerchief but it seems that it's nowhere to be found. "Hey, Miss... you dropped your handkerchief..."
"You set it again, my heart's in motion, Every word feels like a shooting star, I'm at the edge of my emotions, Watching the shadows burning in the dark"
I find myself always going here at this place, not knowing that I want to see him every day, but every time I saw him I go away from him. Since the day that he gave back my handkerchief and he smiled for me, I felt happy, that there's someone who can look at me without hesitation. And I think that he has no idea that I'm in mess, that my world is a misery right now.
But one day, "Hey..." he called me, I looked around and to go away from him, I'm happy to see him but I still don't know why, I stood up but you held my wrist, "A-are you alright?" you asked me, I nodded and "Are you sure? You looked pale?" he tried to look at me and I was blushing like a tomato and my heart beats again so fast, "Are you really okay? Why don't you sit, here again, I'll go get some drinks" he said.? He runs off and I slowly sat down again and I put my hands on my face and "hey hey... he's just being nice!" I said to myself.
He came back and he offered me the drinks that he just bought, I accepted it, and I blushed again, I still don't know what to do right now, It feels like the world is slowly revolving only on us. Forgetting the misery that I left at my world and facing the present nowhere with him. I smiled as I felt that the thorns at my heart are already taken out by him.
He told me everything in his life, I was too interested in him, I was too stunned about him, I listened in every word that he says and every laugh that he made. I laughed a little bit yet I know he still senses that I am still not comfortable about him. "Oh, by the way, I'm Kwon Ji Yong" he introduced himself, I did surprise me that I didn't realize that we haven't introduced ourselves to each other until now, "I-I'm Park Sandara," I said to him. He smiled at me that made me shocked, I don't know, but I'm always like this every time he smiles at me.
