Disclaimer: This story is a bit morbid, please beware of the scenes that you will be reading in this. And this Oneshot was made because of an event that happened to the author, but no killing nor suicide has been made in reality, the author just wanted to kill a person that has been so special to her.
I saw you lying down on the ground gasping for some air, as for me, I stared at you while crying with disbelief, "How di-di I..." I tremble as I looked at my hand full of blood, the blood of yours. I really didn't mean to do it but it was just so irritating that giving me a hint with nothing. I fell in love with him again but I'm hurting myself.
Still looking at him, then a bitter smile formed on my face, he called my name for some help. I grip on the knife that I was holding yet I throw it away seeing my blood on it and on my hand. I'm in a state of shocked "H-help me" he said, I still don't what to feel at the moment, but seeing him dying in front of me breaks my heart, it wasn't so easy to let it go, I break down and cried, "I-i..." I started to talk "H-how..." I was confused; I tried to speak again but this time no words were coming out. "Da-Dara... ho—"he was trying to say something, yet another bitter smile formed on my face and said, "I hate that..."
I left him, pleading to me to save but I didn't, It hurt so much, but a curve in my lips formed "that I still love you even though you already have Chae Rin" I said as I wiped my tears. I turn around and left him, die. But then I take one last look at him, he was still lying on the floor, swimming in his own blood trying to call for some help the curve in my lips we're still there 'I must be a demon' I thought.
As I thought, she's looking for him "Do you know where—"her eyes widen as she covers her mouth with disbelief "What d-did you do to him?" she asked, I smirked at her and left her dumbfounded. I heard her run towards him. The curve on my lips disappeared as I heard her talking to him. My plan didn't go well, she's cursing out my name as I just let out a little laugh. "You've been saved," I said as I walk through a dark alley. Then Flashbacks started to come,
"Why are you doing this to me?" I said, he was confused, trying to explain something. "Don't... come near me" I said between my sobs. It was so difficult for me to meet him, "Dara..." he called my name "You already have Chae Rin, please I wanna forget you" I said to him as I wipe my tears, "I wanna go somewhere far from you, Ji" I continued.
I walked away from him but he holds my wrist to stop me and hugged me "I-I really don't want to do this, Ji but you made me to" tears started to flow non-stop. He slowly faced me with confusion, "W-why..." he falls to the ground looking at me "I love you Dara" he said as he struggles I was so shocked but it turned to a devilish smile.
I found myself lying on the ground, crying and feeling the regrets, "I must not" I get up and my way home. It feels so heavy that I couldn't breathe so properly, I just smirked and ignore the feelings "they must be searching for me now" I said to myself.
I'm in my room, thinking about what should I do now, I almost killed him, my friends were texting me as well as Seunghyun, he is calling me, but I ignored every SMS and calls that they made. I'm walking back and forth, feeling that cops will be here in a minute. The maids we're knocking on my door telling me that I have a phone calls from my friends, but I didn't budge to answer them. I'm afraid, that they will tell me that what have I've done with him. I'm afraid of everything,
It wasn't so easy for me, I'm in trouble, but week have passed no cops we're being here, and it's driving me crazy, my maids we're worried about me, they're leaving some foods on my doorstep but I never did, not once get it and eat it. Then again Seunghyun we're calling at me, I just watch my phone vibrate, I'm afraid of what Seunghyun will tell me. Still don't know what to do, I curled up in a corner and thinking about my acts.
I heard heavy knockings, I slowly opened my eyes, I couldn't move, I couldn't say anything, I tried but no words were coming out of my mouth. Then I heard a click, they all run towards me, Seunghyun holds my head yet I don't feel anything, "Call an Ambulance now" he shouted, "Dara, please be with us" he said, I still don't know what is he trying to say, but I just noticed that I'm watching them crying, Seunghyun holding me still can't believe on what just happened to me. "Dara please be with me, for us," he said. "What is happening?" I asked myself, I looked around to my room and I 1 small bottle with pills scattered on it, "No... I didn't" then "Hey... it's Dara's letter" Bom said, Seunghyun gets it and read it,
"Maybe now you're crying over me, I know it's hard to believe but I can't just isolate myself here in my room, it's hard to think that I did such a crime to my love, Ji Yong, I know it will hurt you so much Seunghyun, but thank you for being here for me till this time, I know I'll be dead as you read this, I love you for being you but I'm sorry but I still love Ji Yong, but I don't want to ruin the relationship that Ji Yong and Chae Rin have. I did the crime because I lose control, I told him that I really don't want to do that thing to him but he made me. It's hard, I know it's hard and it's killing me, my conscience is killing me, I'm sorry to do this, but this is the only solution I could think of, I'm afraid you guys will know the crime that I've done and pity me for some reasons, but I really don't want it, I'm such a demon that almost killed the man she loves the most. Maybe it's not loving, maybe it's hatred that's why I've done it. I'm sorry, but please don't be in pain, don't be sad because of me, and please don't be mad at anyone who caused me doing this act. I killed myself because I want to. Thank you"
His eyes widen as he finished reading the letter, while my other friends were crying over me, but it felt good, a demon-like me is now gone, and my friends can live peacefully, not thinking of my situation and I, I'm gone because I want Chae Rin and Ji Yong happy to their life. But for Seunghyun, I love him but not as much as the Love I felt for Ji Yong. I tried to but I can't.
I cried for them as I saw them crying, throwing flowers while I was being brought down. I don't want to them to feel so much pain, I want them to be happy, then I saw a couple, a familiar couple, he was still in the wheelchair, still recovering, yet crying I don't know why I ignored it. "I must go and live another life and will be happy"
A/n: You may think that I'm a bad writer but this is how I express my emotions towards a guy and I just really want to kill him. But no killings nor suicide have been made in reality as I mentioned to the Disclaimer. Sorry for this one-shot, I didn't mean to kill anyone but it's just that.
