I've found my Joy

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Chapter 1---- My Past

When I was very much younger, I was engaged in sexual acts that one would now called 'child molestation', but at the time I was very young and naive. He was very much older than me and was the friend of my family. He'd invite me to his house then closed the doors and touched me inappropriately. At that young age I was very much unaware of how serious it was. Infact, most of my childhood was like tthis. I often try to make the good times outweigh the bad; which it always do because my childhood was very fun. I remember when I lived with my grandparents, we had a swing in the stony backyard where me and the other kids normally hang out.

We'd play dolly house and build mud cakes. That part was normal. When I was maybe about seven we moved from my grandparents house. My mother rented a house in the same community where both she and I could have a little bit more privacy. At first everything was perfect. I had my parents to love me, a brand new house and a new life with new friends.

Atleast I thought it was good; it wasn't really. My new friends weren't good friends and we'd often times have conflicts that'll end with us not talking for weeks. My parents also separated.

I was also raised in church. My grandmother was an active member in church and would always encourage her children tto recite bible verses or sing songs. My speciality ws singing. I'd rake up a storm every single times I touched the stage. After entering my teenage years my interest for church wavered and I didnt believe that church was where I wanted to be anymore.