I've found my Joy

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Chapter 3------- My Teenage years (2)

It was lunch time in the 9th grade. He came over to me and we started talking. At first it was small talks but after a while he started joking around and it was hilarious. Couple weeks after that we started dating.

At the time I had a set of friends that would talk about sex day in and out. They'd often laugh at my inexperience then add the famous line "You don'tknow what you're missing". I told J and he said it was ok to be virgin, he also asked me when I planned to loose it. This was in 'February' and I told him 'May'. He agreed with my decision and concluded that I'd loose it to him.

To say I was naive would be an understatement. It was now may and j was in my back about this whole virginity thing. Our relationship was growing by the day and I was falling in love.(Now that I look at it, it was the foundation of a soul tie).

We did it. I gave him me in all my essense. I was no longer pure again and it felt good to be one of my friends. To say J and I relationship got stronger was beyond just that. We'd spend all lunch time together and walk together to get a taxi.

At first he appeared as if he was everything a woman could possibly want in a man. It was all a facade. Yes he was a star player on the football team. Yes he was dark and really handsome but he was also a broken boy looking for someone to fill a gap in his life.

He'd start axcusing me of cheating or playing with his emotions. Our relations was now on and off which resulting it to become  so toxic. My mom found out I was no longer a virgin and she totally flipped. She told me to break up with J which I told her I did but we were still seeing each other.

I wasn't taking any chances so I decided to cut off our sexual relationship. J would often times try to convince me to come home with him which I'd always reply "No". He started cheating on me with many other girls and we'd argue almost every day.

I decided to move on but je apologized to me and said he wouldn't cheat again. I fell fo that yk and he started mentally abusing me by playing games with my mind. I finally gave in and had sex with him, but i wasn't  the only girl he was getting it from. It was the last time we did it, my period skipped the next month and I thought that I was pregnant. I told him. He told me that if I was indeed pregnant it was not his baby. That was the day I made up my mind that I'm done with him forever. I also made a vow to Jesus that if he sent my period I'd give him my life and my worship.

My period came the same day I made that vow, but that wasn't how I turned a Christian.

(I WAS ABOUT 15-16 YEARS OLD DURING THIS PERIOD OF TIME. PEER PRESSURE IS ONE OF THE MAIN FACTORS WHY YOUNG TEENAGE GIRLS LOOSE THEIR VIRGINITY. FORNICATION IS A SIN. I DONT SUPPORT ANY FORM OF SIN).