Teen Hearts (Brallon Fanfic)

Bittersweet (BDENPOV)

Seeing him in the sand like that broke my heart. I did this to him. His hair was still perfectly quiffed, some pieces falling just in front of his face. His longs arms and fingers were curled in front of him, his giant legs up to his chest.

I stepped into the box and laid right in front of him, putting my arms around him. He felt so cold, he was shaking and his expression was contorted into the saddest I'd ever seen on his perfect face. He jolted awake and tried pushing me away.

"Stop-" he whimpered, pushing against my chest, "please, please I just- I hate you Brendon, get away from me," my tears started falling when I heard his voice break. Although all of the words hurt and felt like he was stabbing into my heart and breaking it into thousands of pieces, I held on to him, feeling his pushes get less and less forceful, until he broke down and started sobbing into my shirt.

"Bren I loved you- And.. You were with him. I needed you." He sobbed into my chest as I pulled him closer.

I began to cry as well, my head rested on his, sobbing out words even though they made no sense, "I know, Dallon, I'm sorry. I'm sorry Dallon, I'm sorry. Forgive me, I love you."

Dallon looked up with his big eyes, "Brendon, you don't love me or you wouldn't have been with him. You don't love me because you can't face Sarah about any of this, I know you. I know that this is one sided, and you just don't want to lose me, but Brendon I need the truth. And I know that you love me isn't it."

I stared in his big glimmering eyes and I felt my insides twist and burn as I thought of not having him in my life. But he was right.

"I-. I'm- I don't know, Dallon. I'm so confused. Because last night, I would've never imagined being with anyone but Sarah, with you and Breezy by my side," I whispered, sighing shakily, moving his hair away from his face, "but after what happened tonight, and seeing you like this? I- I just don't know, Dal."

Dallon looked at me and closed his eyes, and before I could realize what was happening, I felt his warm lips sink into mine. They felt amazing, like clouds with electricity, and I slowly dragged my hand up his thigh-

Stop. I needed to stop. I pushed my hands against his chest and pushed him back, his saddened face returning, with a new feature of disappointment.

"I'm sorry Dallon, I just. I can't. I need to figure out everything before I can drag anyone down with me. I'm sorry," I said, putting my thumb against his lip, before sitting myself up on the edge of the sandbox, and gesturing Dallon to join me.

He slowly picked himself up and dragged himself up right next to me, looking down at his hands, while all I could look at was his face.

"Dallon, can we just pretend none of this happened? Please?" I grabbed his chin with my fingers to force him to look at me, "I need my best friend back. And I love Sarah. You could go back to Breezy, I know she would take you."

He smiled sadly and shook his head, "You really are an idiot, aren't you? Why can't you see that I love you? I'll be your best friend forever, but I'll never stop loving you either. I can stay with you, and wait for you to understand but I don't think that's fair for me, Bren."

I look at him confused, starting to get anxious, "Well what are you saying? That we should just stop being friends?"

He smiled his sad smile once again and nodded, "I'm sorry Benny-bear. I can't be around you without thinking thoughts that you are still confused about. It's not fair for any of us. A couple of friends of mine were talking about putting a band together. I want to do it Brendon. It'll suck being without you, but I need time away, I'm sorry. I think this will be good for both of us, you and Sarah can finally do everything you want to without me in the way. Just know that I do really love you."

"This is ridiculous, Dallon," I laughed panicked, "what am I suppose to do without you? This must be a joke or something."

He shook his head and kissed me on the cheek, "I love you, Brendon Boyd Urie. Have an amazing life."

And then he was gone.

A/N just a short little update, next chapter will be amazing, I promise.