Stuck In Between

Stress/ Depression

VICTORIA~

Me and Akoye talked all night about different things it was just the perfect night ever. I them re-gain the memory Jacob left me with. I rolled my eyes and sigh. I got out of bed and we were now traveling I guess the boys are back on the bus. I did my morning and chilled on the living room sofa watching T.V. I surfed the channel until it hit Teen Nick and watched Victorious came on. I felt hands on my shoulder and a kiss. I smiled.

"GoodMorning"He said.

"GoodMorning" He sat next to me wrapping me in his arms as I rested my head on his shoulder. Malia came out in ass shorts she looked like she was about to hit Magic City. I really didn't want Akoye to see her but it was already too late.

"Hey Guys where's Gennis?" She asked.

"In the bed" Akoye said as I took a peek at him and he definitely saw what he liked. I rolled my eyes and just sat there shaking my leg while crossing my arms.

We finally arrived to our destination and got off to Practice. I was done practicing and was pulled by Taylor.

"Wassup girl?"

"Man I need help" she said.

"With what?"

"Well I like EJ and we have been talking as friends and I want to be his."

"Awe" I said as she laughed rolling her eyes.

"Girl whatever but how do I tell him I like him I mean I dont want to break our bond.?"

"I can talk to him for you" I recommended.

"UM ok then tell me what he says as soon as you know?" She said.

"Alright" I said as we both gave each other hugs and went our separate ways.

"VICTORIA!"I looked back and it was Jacob I stopped to let him catch up. He put his arm around my shoulder.

"Wassup?"

"We need to talk. "

"About what at the Ice Machine?"

"Yes" He said nodding his head.

"Oh, well what is it"

"Can we go outside?" he asked.

"Sure" I said as we left to go outside.

"Look Imma be honest I like you very much and I want you so bad to myself, I couldn't hold that in any longer. I'm sorry for kissing you " He said.

"I'm not shock to hear that Jacob but when I was single you could have had me. Look I use to like you too but I have someone"I said. He made a sad face and just left. I rolled my eyes and sigh. I walked back into the building and went to a room just to myself and started crying. After away of crying I turned on the light trying to find some tissue and ended up seeing a blade I stared at it and thought should I? I shook my head no walking away from it, Finding my way to the blade again. I rolled up my sleeve and grabbed the blade flipping it up. I held the tip to my upper arm part. At first I hesitated then finally put the blade into my skin carving a straight horizontal line on my left arm.

Tears started to form as the stinging came in it burned like a muthafucka. I looked around trying to find something I can band-aid it with. I started knocking things over trying to hurry to find something.  I finally found something I can wrap it with. I wrapped my arm up taped it and left clearing my tears away. I went to the girls dressing room and got my hair and Make up done. Every time I looked up I saw Zonnique mean mugging Malia I turned my head and just minded my business.