Stay- Modern AU

Panic

TRIGGER WARNINGS!!!!!

I couldn't do anything to stop the screaming.
I had my head in my hands.
I felt my pulse rushing.
It wouldn't stop.

Your so pathetic.

Why do you even bother?

No one would care if you disappeared.

Just face it.

I was shaking.
I couldn't seem to get enough air in my lungs.
The rushing in my ears got louder.
I couldn't consentrate.
I felt dizzy.
I could vaguely feel tears streaming down my face.

I barely felt arms go around me as my knees failed me.

"PEGGY! PEGGY PLEASE!!"

I could hear someone screaming my name.

I felt a sharp pain against my cheek.

I snapped out of my trance.

I blinked.

"Angie?"

I could see her blurry figure rushing towards me.

"Peggy! Oh Pegs are you okay?"

"Y-yeah." I said and sat up shakily.

Eliza had her arms around me and hugged me as she sobbed.

It had happened again.
I couldn't control it.
I just got lost in the voices in my head.
They were arguing, until the positive one got drowned out and I felt like I was dying.

I realised that someone had slapped me. That was the sharp pain in my cheek.
Eliza had her arms around me but she would never slap me...

"I'll go get water for you," Angie said. She gestured for Eliza to follow.

She slowly detached herself from me and kissed the top of my head.
"Don't scare us like that." She whispered. They both exited and I put my back against the wall and just breathed.

This shouldn't be happening.
I thought I had my anxiety under control.
Clearly not.

I blinked in an attempt to regain some of my vision.
As I did I saw a certain human disaster come through the doorway.

I smiled.

"John."

He had a glass of water in his hand that slid to the floor as soon as he saw my state.

He ran over to me and I saw tear tracks on his cheeks.

"Pegs why did you never tell me?" He chocked out.

"I just couldn't bring myself to do it..." I whispered.

"I could've helped..."

He sounded so guilty. Like it was his fault.

"It's not your fault. Everything just got too much."

He hugged me and slowly I managed to hug him back.

"Peggy you can't scare me like that! My gay ass can't handle any more."

"Honestly, neither can mine."

He smiled.
"Oh and sorry for slapping you. I panicked." {At the Disco I am not sorry}

"Well it worked."

He hesitated. "How long has it been happening?"

"Just a few months."

He sighed. "You can tell me anything Pegs."

"I know that now."

A/N
Yes this is a very short chapter and yes it's not that good.

There will be Lams included in this fanfic cause ITS LAMS.

Maria's POV will be coming too.

This chapter is more just introducing things and not plot, I promise it will get more interesting.

Thanks for reading!!

Edit: I republished it so people will have something to read, although I'm still sorting stuff out.