Tulips Life in Minecraft

Chapter 10

I walk downstairs and see him frying some eggs. "You hungry?" He asks. "Yea actually really hungry." "Okay" he says slapping some eggs on a plate and handing them to me. "Thanks" I sit down into a chair. "So what are we going to do today?" Connor doesn't answer me. "Are you mad at me or something?" "No." He answers stubbornly. "Really Connor? Are you kidding me right now?" "What?" He answers "Ugh stop doing that!" "What am I doing??" He says fired. I really don't want to fight with him so I just grab my eggs and storm out of the room. I walk outside to the front of the house. I decide to take a walk. I bring a sword and a few tools just in case. I go outside and keep walking, thinking how I can hint on to Connor that we can't be in a relationship. I couldn't bear live to be with him, then break up. I love him...as a friend. And I feel that if we date then that would ruin what we have. I start to think about Kylee. My best friend that I would never have to deal with this stress with. I know Kylee loved Connor, he just never saw it. And if we dated, that would ruin my life. I sit down and start to eat. I know I can't get used to my life here. But all I can do is live one day at a time. I start to think deeply about life. If this is a dream or something. I start pinching myself. Weirdly it doesn't hurt. As if I have no feeling. I don't wake up though. I squeeze my arm as hard as I can. Nothing. I decide to try something else. I didn't even notice the tears on my face as I run to find a cliff to jump off of. Am I really going to try to kill myself? I find a cliff and stumble. I trip myself so I don't fall off the cliff. I sit there on the edge. Adrenaline pumping. I must know if this is real or not. I'm sure it isn't. And I can't take being here. I can't have feelings for Connor. I just can't. I start to break down and cry. Not sure why but I feel lonely. I'm shaking, I stand up. Scared for what is going to happen. About to jump off what seems to be 150 feet in the air. It's far, and I can't really see the bottom. I start to wobble. And then I hear a voice. Not Connors, but one recognize, "Wait! Don't do it!" She says... Is that...who I think it is?