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Fear of Freezing My Past

By words freezing other words

Never touch to see light

Never see the light

As my eyes are blinded

By blue of the

Burning hatred

And the raging flames

Blue is meaning of water

But the darken point

Is the freezing of the water

As memories only arises

From the water

That I want it to end

I want to freeze the water

For those memories to end

Stop it from showing

Who I truly am

I'm scared to show

My arising memories

From the depth

To the surface

Of the water

I call... Darkness

It want to show others

But I won't let it out

I will never show it

To anyone as the memories

Are too much for myself

To handle

They don't need to know

Who I am

I don't need my personas

I need to keep myself clear

Unemotional

Masking emotions within myself

As I seek protection and security

Within myself

I freeze what is left of

What I have become

I became my worst enemy...

I can't be free

I want to be free

I need to be free

From this despair

I need to show

I need to know

Who I am

Who am I

As I make my decisions

My mistakes

My life....

I can't see from within...

I don't want to see

Who I become...