Ivar, my love.

Chapter 3

I fell asleep in Helga's arm's that night, afraid to ever let anyone else touch me again. I wondered where Ivar was, he was supposed to come back. He was supposed to protect me. I stirred in my sleep, eventually opening my eyes. "Y/N dear, how are you feeling" I nodded my head at her, telling her i was okay. She sat up slowly and told me to get ready for breakfast. I changed into a new dress and braided my hair. I glanced at myself in the mirror, horrified at the sight of my swollen eyes. "Do not worry, they will feel better soon" I nodded again. She held my hand and kept another hand tightly around me, as we walked through the village and towards Floki and Helga's barn. "Ah Y/N just in time, the eggs just got off the stove" I sent him a small smile and sat down at the table.

Breakfast had taken too long to end, before i knew it Helga was walking me back to my hut. "You do not have to stay" I whispered, scared of my own voice. "No i do" I stopped walking and turned to face her. "I would feel much better if you stay at home with floki, i shall ask Hvitserk to watch over me" She was hesistant at first but then nodded. "Okay, only if you in form lagetha" I looked at her confused. "Lagetha can protect you" I looked away, thinking for a minute or two. "Only for a couple days"

And so she did, Helga had spoken to Lagetha. Lagetha had been watching over me for four days now, she taught me to fight better and how to handle my emotions. I was feeling slightly better, but i missed Ivar so much. Lagetha had to go back to her town, and so i stayed put. But boredom soon took over me. It was still light, maybe i could sit along the beach for a while. I put on a clean dress and left my little hut. "Y/N" I spun around to suddenly be engoulfed by a pair of arms. Actually make that two, nope now three. They eventually let go and there stood, Bjorn, Ubbe and Hvitserk. "How are you princess?" Ubbe asked patting my head. "I have been okay, have you seen Ivar? I kind of miss him" They all looked at each other, sympathy crossing their faces. "What is it?" I asked. "He has just been a bit busy" I giggled. "Ivar busy?" hahahahahahah that is so funny. "Yes...with a women" I froze, i felt my heart break slightly. "A women?" Ubbe gulped and the stepped forward, making me step back. "Y/N" "No, what do you mean a women. Was he with this 'woman' when that thing happened to me?" I asked angrily whilst wriggling my fingers as i said woman. "Yes" I stepped back again, as a tear fell down my face. How could he, I thought i was the only woman for Ivar. I love him. I turned on my heels and ran back to my hut. I could hear the boys calling after me but i closed my door, pulling down the latch. I fell face first into my bed and cried myself to sleep.

Waking up i dressed quickly, braiding my hair and placing my weapons in the right places. Strapped my two axes onto my back under my shield and placed throwing knives around my belt. Not forgetting my machete on my thigh that Bjorn had found in the Mediteranian. I made my way to the boats where everyone had gathered for the next raid and sat down at the nearest boat. "Y/N?" Ivar had asked from the port, but i kept my back facing him. "Alright lass are you riding with us today?" I nodded at the giant behind me and felt the boat rock slightly as he entered it. I sat in the same position, staring into the sea until the boats finally left the port.