Happy...

i'm not okay

Sunday 9:45 A.M.

Wonho's POV

i love the snow, it looks so peaceful, falling down effortlessly it makes me smile, i saw a peculiar snowflake before i turn to my front, and it turns out, changkyun was already infront of me.... i blush out of embarrassment and then i giggled with him... we stared at eachother for what almost seemed a millenium, until the waitress showed up with FOOD!!!!!

we eat until the only thing left were the drinks....i slurped the hell out of my shake, while he sips it gently for some reason...then an unexpected conversation came up.....

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the last thing i remembered was i ran outside tearing up, i sat down the corner of chick fil-a and i looked at my hands... i asked my self... "are you still happy?" my head keeps saying "no"
even though my heart keeps saying "yes", i cover my eyes and sobbed until i saw changky on his knees, crying as well, whilst giving me his hand towel... we sit beside each other and we hug

conversation

wonho: i'm sorry i ran from you?

changkyun: are you ok?

wonho: "i'm not okay"

changkyun: it's ok, i understand...

wonho: ok...i was wrong, the feeling i felt earlier today was wrong, i love you changkyun, always and forever, i will never ignore my heart again, i can't live without you.

changkyun: *a tear falls off his cheek as he hears wonho tell him he loves him* i love you too, and i don't ever wanna leave you, what do you say...we go back to our apartment?

wonho: sure...

we walk through the neighborhood singing songs that aren't usually heard in this type of country but i do say, the romance is making my hair stand up.

we get back to the apartment, my changky sits on the bed and i sit on his lap...we kiss, i hold him tight, but he holds me even tighter. he falls back on the bed and i kiss him even harder...everything escalated quickly after that.... all i remember is waking up with him again...my head to his chest and his hand to my hair...

i ignored the bad feeling, and my love for changky got rid of that feeling for good.