True Friends

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Time.

Time, as simple as it seems, is a very complicated concept if you look at it carefully.

Time is just another thing that people take for granted.

We see it as a integral part of our lives but we don't see it as something that could easily change the course of our lives.

That's what happened to us. Time got in the way of things. I didn't see it at first but when I finally did, it felt like a hard slap to my face.

I was slow to realize what was happening but understand that I never thought that it could be a possibility. After 6 years of friendship, I never imagined I'd see the day we'd go our own ways. It sounds cheesy but I was hopeful.

Maybe because a part of me always thought that she'd stay with me through thick and thin for a long time. After all, she was the one who approached me and complimented my hair clip. She was the only one who approached me to be friends with. She was my first and only friend ever and I was hers too but at some point, she got tired. It hurts to think of it but that's the reality of what happened to us.

I was the only one who's keeping her from her breakthrough and she let me go as fast as possible when she had the chance to do so. She's been waiting for it to happen and when the opportunity presented itself, she took it and I was left on my own.

It's been on her mind for so long, she just waited for the perfect time to drop me.

I understand why she left me in the dust, my social anxiety kept me from being...sociable. I was pulling her down with me, I had limits that she wanted me to push through but I couldn't do so. I don't hate her for leaving me alone, I knew she had plans that she created and none of it consisted of me.

I understand and I always will.

Maybe I'm just designed to be alone, so nobody had to suffer associating themselves with me. I think that the years of camaraderie that I have built with her was just a taste of belongingness that was given to me and have been set to have a expiration date so afterwards, nobody had to be bothered by me anymore.

But...

Just when I thought that things are finally where it's supposed to be. Chaos started and I found myself in the middle of a wreckage trying to put the pieces together. I do not feel great whenever I remember this story but there's only a few things that I can say.

A lot happened and I don't know what to do anymore.

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