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How to move on:
the reality
Day by day, we met lots of people. Some of them stays, but mostly just passing by.
Sometimes, we get to bumped with strangers and stays as stranger. Sometimes, those strangers became closed to us and we can't even imagine a minute without them.
Knowing we lived for years first before they came and we survived but thinking at the moment we thought we can never last a day being parted ways.
Ilang taon na rin ang lumipas nang makilala ko si Zuki.
Kung saan-saan na rin ako tinangay ng panahon.
Kung anu-anong kapalaran na rin ang pinagdalahan sa 'kin ng pagkakataon.
Maayos na ang lahat──okay na ako.
Maraming tao ang nakilala ko. May iba't-ibang kuwento sa buhay, may kaniya-kaniyang karanasan at pinag-daanan.
Nakakatuwang isipin dahil pare-pareho tayong nabubuhay na sa kabila ng maraming pag-subok, nalalagpasan at patuloy pa rin nating nilalabanan.
Ako, tanggap ko nang isa lang si Zuki Ichen sa masayang parte ng aking nakaraan.
Wala na akong nararamdaman para sa kaniya.
But,
when I saw him again, I realized a lot of things. The feelings when he's around, his smile that always brings convenience in my heart, his deep voice I've longed to hear, his dark eyes, and all.
I denied everything.
Just until he told me his news.
"I'm getting married," he said as he chuckled.
One thing I conclude, gustong-gusto ko pa rin siya.
Kahit hindi na talaga puwede,
kahit wala nang pag-asa,
kahit tapos na ang lahat sa 'min, kung mayro'n nga bang dati sa 'tin,
kahit malabo na ang lahat.
Kahit hanggang ngayong nasa proseso pa rin ako ng pagmu-move on.
I wanna believed that time heals all wounds but I can't see the point. Na hanggang ngayon, kahit maraming taon na ang nakalipas pero ito ako't nasasaktan pa rin lalo na sa katotohanang hindi talaga kami para sa isa't-isa.
Zuki will always be in my heart.
And probably, I will never like someone as how I like this guy.
Siguro kasi, kahit pagbali-baliktarin ang mundo siya't siya pa rin ang ma-gugustuhan ko, ang mamahalin, at patuloy na iibigin.
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