Please Dont Go

Chapter 7

Ross:

when Lisa got out of sight in her van I ran home as fast as I could. I got home and ran into my room upstairs but on my way I bumped into Riker and he said " woah chill Ross What's wrong?" "NOTHING RIKER LEAVE ME ALONE!" when I got to my room I shut the door hard and screamed at the top of my lungs "WHY LISA WHY DID YOU HAVE TO LEAVE!!! " I started crying thrown on the floor feeling helpless when Riker came in running fast and kneeled down on the floor he tried to pick me up but I stood still he then said "Ross What is wrong tell me!" when Rydel came in too and sat beside Riker she asked me the same question and I got up. I fell back down on the floor feeling weakend and I tried to get back up when Rydel got on one side and Riker on the other and they helped me up and down to the living room they sat me on the couch and the rest of my family sat beside me I told them all "l-lisa left she left far away...forever " then I saw that my mom and Rydel looked at each other and they both said in unison "we already knew we" "Lisa didn't want to tell you cause then you were going to get depressed " Rydel said then my mom said "she didn't want to hurt you and me and you're sister didn't want to hurt you either"    I looked at the ground and started crying when Riker said "Ross I umm-" I cut home off and yelled at him " I KNOW RIKER YOU KISSED LISA SHE TOLD ME!" "and I should have not done tha-" "Riker just SHUT UP I have already been hurt so much and the last thing I want to remember or know is they you kissed Lisa and how it happened" I ran ran upstairs letting go of my dad's arm and went to the bathroom, shut the door,  sat on the floor and pulled out a pocket knife I always have and started singing while crying "staayy-wiiith-mee..... to-night" and started cutting myself on both wrists when I heard someone knock on the door I quickly got up and washed the blood of both wrists, it burned so bad. after I Finished I opened the door and it was my mom she started crying when she saw my wrists I thought she wasn't going to see it I thought and she said "r-ross why would you do that honey" " one word mom, Lisa" I told her and ran back to my room

~ 1 month later

it's been 1 month Since Lisa left, depressed,  maybe even more, it feels like Since she left each day I feel more hurt. my heart right now is literally empty I havent smile Since she left. Rydel came in my room without knocking and sat beside me she said "Ross you got to get over her you can't stay like this for the rest of your life, trust me and miss her alot too" " I can't Rydel she is the only thing I had that I loved more than anything in the world." I said back. Rydel got up and said "it's lunch time we are having a cookout and mom wants you to come down" she walked out the room when suddenly the memory came back to my head the day before Lisa left, the day after that p-perfect kiss, the last whole day I spent with her I thought and a tear ran down my cheek I wiped it off and went down stairs to eat, everything was so quiet and dull.

~2 months later(December)

R5 had a tour and we got on the tour bus. we arrived at our first place for concert Miami,Florida and that night while we were singing I saw this girl she was like an exact person of her. I kept starring at her and she looked back once in a while but also starred at Riker and Rydel but they both didn't notice. After the concert was over we got back in the bus and told them if they had seen the girl that looked just like Lisa they said I was having illusions from my depression but I didn't listen I kept thinking about her all tour

~11 months later (3 months after tour ended)

it's September and it's been Exactly 1 year Since Lisa had moved. I shut myself in my room for about a month and then when I felt it, it was thanksgiving and my mom said time to pray and before we started I said "there is nothing for me to be thankful for mom Lisa is not were and she is the only thing I used to thanks for" "ross I can't deal with this anymore you have to quit it, your going to have to forget about it at some point...Ross" "NO I WON'T MOM NO I WON'T!" I yelled back, everything got silent and ran to my room.

~1 month later (december christmas eve)

it's Christmas Eve and it was 9:01 we all ate dinner I was trying not to ruin another holiday and when my mom said to pray I pretended to pray without saying a word. by the time we finished dinner it was 11:08 52 minutes till midnight and Christamas day everybody was around the Christmas tree near the fireplace, it was snowing outside. I went up to my room quickly to get into my PJ's and 3 mins before 12 I heard a guitar that started playing Stay With Me then I looked out the window I got so shocked I couldn't move as tears started running down my face, my eyes red, I saw........

This is only Ross's part of how his 1st year without Lisa. next chapter will be about Lisa's year without Ross follow me on instagram mirellar5 and tell me What you think btw What do you think Ross found out on his window???