Blah 2

Im trying to float

Lately I've been feeling like I'm drowning and I feel like I'm trying to stay afloat but something always keeps pulling me down and I feel like I can't breathe and I see monsters. My demons, my anxiety, my depression, my fears. I feel like I'm in a black hole and I'm trying to escape but it's more stronger than me and it's keep sucking me down.

I feel like I'm slowly breaking like a damn, I feel like there's nothing for me anymore. I keep trying to smile, I fake my happiness, I feel like I shouldn't even be here.

I'm not even myself, I starve myself, I work out, I work, I feel like nothing is helping, I'm trying to be strong, healthy. Nothing.

I keep trying to swim to the top so I can float but all I'm doing is drowning