|The Book of All Things|

The Fifth Step

Wow..

Now things are getting hard and harder in my life..

Some stuff I wish I can say to certain people, face to face.

But I can't say it out loud, I'm a nice person unless someone cross me the wrong way. Then I will say it to their face.

But...

Too stressed and frustrated with things going on in my rl.

(Sorry Im just gonna blabber on this. You can.. Well read or whatever. So yeep :3)

First thing to talk about..

Family

They are like to be two-faced to one another. It's tiring and irritating.

So.. Smh.. Ugghh..

They like to be nice and encouraging to other people. Until the door is shut. All the things they thought to themselves are out in the open.

"oh she/he is awful.. They done this or done that, blah blah blah.."

Gosh, wish they can just enjoy life and just be helpful to one another.

Just live and be thoughtful.

Not put people down and make them feel bad about who they are..

° ° °

And there's the other thing..

My only 'Friend'

That one friend is a girl and been around a long time. She was good friend, someone I can call my sister or best friend.

But that changed.

She isn't around no more, she thinks I don't want her around when I tried contacting her few times, then find out something from her sister.

She don't wanna be my friend anymore.

She doesn't say but gave me hints.

How I find out;

She blocked me, ignored me when I ask what's going on or just talk to me, believe me. I wanted to help her if something is going on but.. She didn't want my help or anything with me.. and I even asked her mother what's going on. She told me what that.. person.. has been saying about me.

Behind my back
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Some friend.
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She told her mother some personal things and mocked it. I trusted her with those things. Some hurtful stuff.

All the trust and respect just vanished I had of her.

I guess that's my fault, maybe. Idk but might have to breathe in and out, then move on. Turn my head to other side and just walk away.

I wanted things to work out and we can still be friends again but no. She made it clear.

Another thing to my next step in life:

Things change.

*sighs*

Wonder what else is gonna change in this life.