suicidal || changlix

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TRIGGER WARNING

Changbin POV

It was a cold night, but I couldn't sleep. Quietly I walked up the stairs to the rooftop and heard faint cries from afar. The closer I got, the louder the cries came. A stray piece of paper was in front of the door. I picked it up and it was a long note. It wasn't labeled for anyone. The note read:

Dear whoever it concerns, life isn't worth it anymore. I'm empty and dead inside. The depression and anxiety tore away at my heart and health. It tore away for years until there was nothing left. I'm a hollow shadow that no one wants anything to do with. I'm sorry for wasting air. I'm sorry Chan, Jisung, Hyunjin. I'm sorry for the whole world. I'll miss being here with you. Goodbye

-Lee Felix

I realized this wasn't any note, it was a suicide note. The cries were getting louder and faster. Quickly, I opened the door and saw a man standing on the edge. His shoes, wallet and phone were in the corner. "Hey wait!" I yell over the wind. 'Felix' turns around, tears streaming down his face. He looks at me, then sees the note in my hand. I run towards him and Felix tries to jump. I reach him just in time and grab his wrist.

Pulling him back onto the roof, Felix cries harder then he was. "Let me go! I don't want to be here!" Felix yells and struggles to get out of my grasp. He gives up after a few minutes and I walk him into the stairs. "Felix, talk to me." I whisper and hold his hands. Felix looks down and says "Why? It's not like you would care." We sit down and I look into his eyes. "Felix, I do care." I tell him.

Felix cracks at me telling him I care. "My parents, jyp, they all reject and h-hate me." Felix stutters and falls into my arms. "Don't worry, I won't. Come with me." I say and Felix struggles to get up. I pick him up and bring him to my apartment. Setting him down on the couch, I offer for him to shower. "Sure. Thanks." Felix sniffs and I direct him to the bathroom. 

Felix took a long shower, and after 15 minutes I went to check on him. Opening the door, I say "Felix? Felix it's me." I say and notice there is a razor blade coming out of his pocket. Gasping, I pull back the door. Felix is whimpering, his arms covered with fresh cuts. He had a blade in his hand, which lay limp on the floor. "Felix!" I gasp.

Felix cries and holds the razor blade tight in his hand. "See? I even failed you." Felix whispers with a small laugh. He had underwear on, so I picked him up again. I brought out the medical kit and set him on the counter. Felix was dripping wet and I started to bandage his cuts. "Ow." Felix whined. "I'm sorry Felix, these need to be covered." I explain to him. Felix nods and tears fill his eyes. After about 5 minutes I finish wrapping all of them.

"Changbin, I uhm. um." Felix stutters. "What is it?" I ask worried. "I don't want to go home." Felix tells me. "Aww, don't worry about that. I wasn't planning on letting you go." I say. "Where am I gonna stay?" Felix asks. "With me." I say blandly. Felix nods and shakily walks to get the rest of his clothes. They were also wet. "Changbin!" I hear Felix yell. "Yes?" I call back. "My clothes are wet." Felix tells me embarrassed. I laugh and hand him a shirt and sweats. "Thank you." Felix blushes.

Felix climbs into the bed and is asleep in no time. It was a long night for the both of us. I lay down on the couch, but the I hear a faint "Changbin." Felix ushered me over and made me lay with him. He curled into a ball and fell back asleep in my arms. I hugged him with all my might. I just met him, but he wasn't going to die.