suicidal || changlix

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When I woke up, Felix wasn't awake. I slink out of the bed and make some pancakes for the both of us. After about 30 minutes Felix wakes up and groans. "Felix, are you okay?" I call out from the kitchen. "NO!" Felix yells. I run over to him and see him wreathing in pain. "Felix what happened?" I ask and hold him in my lap. Tears started to pour out of his eyes. He was holding his arm and his legs were curled up. Immediately I carried him to the couch and took off his shirt and bandages.

The cuts were bleeding all over the place. "They opened back up, they were almost healed too. That's why it hurts so much." I explain and Felix nods. Felix wipes his tears off and I wrap his arm back up. After I finish we go and sit down to eat. "Thank you." Felix says and smiles. "Of course, do you want to see Jisung or Minho?" I question. Felix nods and continues to eat. "Alright, i'll call them." I call Minho and he says he'll come over with Jisung later.

Felix seems relieved after his anxiety attack. I decide to clean and first do the dishes. Felix sets the bed and arranges the pillows. After about 30 minutes the living room is spotless. "Wow Felix. It looks good." I compliment him. "I like having a boyfriend like you." I say. Felix smiles a bright smile and flops onto the couch. I continue to clean the bedroom and then Minho knocks on the door. "Come in!" Felix calls. Jisung opens the door and walks in slowly. 

"Woah, it's so clean." Jisung says in awe. Minho follows Jisung in and we all gather on the couch, while I sit in the chair. "Missed us already?" Minho teases. "Why wouldn't I?" Felix asks. Jisung laughs and ushers me over. "Changbin why are you over there?" Jisung asks. I shrug and sit next to Felix. Felix sinks into my arms and we hug. "AWE!" Minho and Jisung yell in unison. Felix get embarrassed and buries his face in my arms. I smile and laugh. Jisung tells more stories of knowing Felix for a while, and Minho tells stories of Jisung. 

"And then Jisung ran into the wall!" Minho laughs. We all laugh and Felix starts to wheeze. Attempting to get ourselves together, Minho shushes us. "Minho. why are you sushing us? You told the joke!" Felix tries to say while laughing. Minho pushes him and Jisung pulls him back towards him. Felix hits my leg and laughs still. "Felix Felix calm down." I say and try to make everyone calm down. "Alright everyone, i'm going to make some tea." I tell them and get up.

"Hello?" Minho questions into his phone. Minho and an unknown man talk on the phone for a few minutes. "CHANGBIN!" Jisung yells. "What?" I call out. "Can Bang Chan come over?" Jisung asks. I think back to Felix's note, which I still have. "Of course!" I say and wink at Felix. Felix smiles brightly and I walk out with some tea. "Here." I place it in front of everyone. Jisung pours himself and Minho a cup, while I pour Felix one. Minutes later, this Bang Chan man was at the door. 

Felix opens the door and yells "OI MATE!". Bang Chan hugs him and picks Felix up. "Felix, we're going to get a noise complaint!" I scold and Felix nods. Bang Chan introduces himself. "Hello, I'm Bang Chan." I bow and tell him "I'm Changbin." Felix hugs me and forces me to drink some of his tea. Chan and I get to know each other, and turns out Chan is also from Australia. Felix and Chan sometimes talk in English. All three of Jisung, Minho and I have no clue what they're saying. They say 'Oi mate' a lot. Must be an aussie thing.

We all are gathered at my apartment for hours. Felix was in my lap and we all started to relax. Rain poured on the balcony outside and the noise level was perfect. I look down and see Felix is asleep. I signal for Chan to look, and he grabs the attention of Jisung and Minho. They cover their mouths so no one could hear them laughing. I put him in the bed and tuck him in. Walking over to Chan, Minho and Jisung I scold them. "Don't wake him up. He needs to sleep well." I explain to them.

All of them nod and make a silent agreement. "Okay, way to be passive agressive." Jisung laughs quietly. "Oh yea Changbin, whats your relation to Felix?" Chan questions. Minho chokes on water but tries to not be loud. "I'm his boyfriend. I though he told you?" I tell him. Chan inhales aggressively. "What's wrong Chan?" Minho asks with a wide smile. "Nothing, Felix just didn't tell me." Chan explains. I nod.

The boys stay for about 45 more minutes before they leave. "Bye. Come back soon!" I whisper yell after them. Chan walks as quiet as he can. "Good night. Treat him well." Chan whispers. I nod and close the door. After changing, I go into the bed. "I love you dork." I whisper into Felix's ear and listen to the rain. Soon, I fall asleep with Felix next to me.