jar of thoughts

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feelings.

trapped inside your own head. your thoughts scream at you. the good, the bad, and everything in between. after awhile you get used to the sound. the loud, blasting thoughts, turn muffled.

happy thoughts take a trip to the back of your head. the last pieces of happiness lay defeated in the back of your mind.
sadness takes over causing you to feel unsteady. everything begins to slowly drift away. the old self, you knew a couple weeks ago is gone.

so quickly, in the blink of an eye. everything changes. sometimes it's good change, or a bad one.
crying seems more normal each time you do it. the loud thoughts come back and overtake you. you feel like your so deep inside of your head, and there's no way back to the surface.

the days become more unbearable than the ones before. it seems as if they just repeat. the same people, the same places, and the same thoughts. the way that you feel becomes normal.

people notice. only the ones who care ask. don't trust everyone, unless they are trusted. people talk, people lie, and people pretend. now you are drowning in your emotions and in everyone's bs. will it ever end? the surface is so close, yet it's not at all.