backstabber !

talking to you (suicide warning)

I walk into the cafeteria slightly late, and see Yuki in line getting his food. He looked.. Annoyed?

I walked over to him since he was the last person in line and I poked him, "Hey."

"Leave me alone- I mean, hi Sora."

I blinked. Great, what did I do now? I always somehow make people I care about so mad at me. "I found out about why you moved to this school, and I don't like it."

"...I swear, it was defending..."

"Shut it. You sent somebody to the hospital, that's disgusting."

"But you don't understand."

"What other story is there to hear?!"

"MY story."

"Well, I'm sure it'll just waste my time!"

"Then why are you my friend? Are you my friend out of pity? Do you just not like me? I think this whole thing is on you when you're jumping to conclusions."

"I'm NOT jumping to conclusions. Go away, Sora. I don't want to be seen talking to you, at ALL."

I stare at him. "Fine. Fine Yuki, you're right and I'm wrong. You feel better now?" I put up my hands in self defense. "Oh well! How pathetic of me to think you'd care about what happened to my brother. Bye, Maeda. I'll just leave you alone, like you wanted." I rolled my eyes and stormed off.

As soon as I left, I had to force myself to NOT cry.

I lost my younger brother to suicide.

And someone pushed him to it.

I didn't mean to send the person to a hospital, but it didn't affect me too much since you don't just push someone to suicide. And I wish I never did it, but oh well. I got kicked out my first freshmen year since my brother also joined at the same time as me.

And of course, Maeda didn't want to hear my side of the story and now thinks I'm a psycho. Whatever.

It doesn't matter as long as no one but me is hurting, anyways. It's just how life is, i always try to take the fall anyways. But it's quite funny how he changed his opinion on me.

But it's okay.

I sink down to the floor after a few tears escaped and I nodded while nodding, "It's okay."

-

It's now the end of the day, and I guess I'm walking home. Alone. I didn't mind being alone too much, I stayed quiet as I fumbled with my bag.

And then I get a text from some number. "Why Sora? Why would you do it?"

"Who is this?"

"Yuki. Yoruko gave me your number."

"I thought you didn't want to be around/talk to someone like me. Because all I am is a freak for doing that, right? That's what you think? Your opinion on me doesn't matter too much; as long as you don't EVER compare me to a bully like the kid I attacked for driving my brother to suicide."

"...What?"

"You can reread texts for a reason."

"..."

"I didn't know."

"I thought you didn't care, huh Yuki?"

"I just got really disgusted and upset, alright? Please don't blame me."

"Right. And I should blame myself."

"Shut up, Sora. Stop thinking so low of yourself. You're really smart."

"...Funny you say this now, your mood changes quite fast doesn't it?"

"Pretty sure I'm bipolar, but it's.. oh well, I guess."

"...Well are you happy? I told you why I attacked the kid. I didn't mean to take it that far, but I was just angry."

"..yeah. yeah, I'm sorry."

"...whatever. im walking home so talk to you later."

"actually, can you meet me at the park later tonight?"

"is this supposed to be you asking me out? my, my, yuki."

"shut up. i just wanna go relive some memories with you. please?"

"sure, yuki, i suppose."

"see you later?"

"see you later. :)"