It Hurts Sometimes

How it starts

Long distance is hard. No one said it would be easy, but then again, anything worth the pain never is. No one really knows how hard it is unless they've been through it either. People tell us, 'it'll be okay, just stay strong'. That is easier said than done sometimes. I can't just fall asleep in my fiancé's arms or feel her breathing on my neck like normal couples can. The most we can do is fall asleep together on facetime, hoping our phones don't die or the wifi doesn't cut out. And something that doesn't really help is the time difference between us. Most of the year she is five hours ahead of me. So while I'm eating dinner, she's getting ready to sleep for her early shift the next day.

I finally had her for a week. Against my parents consent I flew overseas, to a different country to have her for a week. It was truly the best, most calming, best money ever spent week. Leaving wasn't easy..... I cried on the flights back, couldn't listen to a new album we both heard together for the first time, couldn't fall asleep for the first few nights. But, even with all the hurt i put my family through, and the heartbreak me leaving caused us both, I don't regret it. I would do it all over again. Love can hurt sometimes, True Love though. It's true love that hurts the most. But it's true love that is worth the hurt, worth the pain and tears.

Granted it was the best week ever, it made every second I'm not with her harder than before. Craving her touch once more, wanting nothing more than to kiss her lips again. They say young love never lasts. But maybe that's because young lovers don't try hard enough. Like fuck, i travelled thousands of miles to see someone i met online, someone i had never met in person before. I trusted her before i met her, and I still trust her now. It's difficult trusting someone an ocean away, it hurts not being to protect them physically. When the most you can do is text or call to see how they are doing or if they're okay. Sometimes you just want their warm embrace or to feel their fingers intertwine with yours. But long distance couples don't get such luxuries. Nope, the most we can have is hearing their voice through the speakers of our phones or through the headphones we have plugged in so others around us can't hear.