Two Halves Make a Whole (Straight Furry Story)

Epilogue

Btw, before the chapter starts, you should know that this is all Skye's writing. :)

[Skye's Journal]

I've learned a few things since meeting Jax. And it's not that wolves are way hotter than tigers. Well, not just that. But I've learned a few things that I feel everyone could also use

1. Not everything is your fault!!! You are not responsible for every situation you are in. You are not responsible for what you hear or see. You are only responsible for yourself and what you choose to do. Having lived in an abusive household for so long, being blamed for things others put upon themselves was a commonplace. No matter what others say, I now realize none of it was my fault. I wasn't the reason my mom left, and I wasn't the reason my dad drinks. That was entirely their choice, and I had nothing to do with it. I may still struggle to remember this sometimes, but I do my best and my overall mood has gone up as a result. I have a much better outlook on life and feel happier in general.

2. Vulnerability isn't something to be ashamed of! If you want to cry, then cry your eyes out. Don't think that issues you have are only supposed to be yours. Share them with someone you trust so they can help you! When I shared them with Jax for the first time, I felt like a weight was lifted off my shoulders. You may think it's embarrassing to tell someone that you're struggling, but if anything, it'll just make you stronger.

3. Enjoy yourself! I used to only do things for others, but never realized how detrimental and draining that was to my mental health. There were times where I'd go through thick and thin for someone, just so they wouldn't have a bad day, completely ignoring myself and how I felt. Now, Jax and I have gone for nights out and relaxed when I wanted to or whenever I was feeling upset. That isn't childish at all, it's just taking care of the great person you are.

4. Socialize (at least a little bit)! Socialize with people, even if it means going out of your comfort zone. If you enjoy just not being around people, that's all cool. BUT if you talk to anyone, especially when you're struggling, you'll get stuck in a self-sustaining loop of not liking yourself, which will only get worse as time goes on.

5. Just do what you love! If you are a total freak to everyone, they can just screw off. Being true to who you are (as long as you're not hurting others) is sooooo super important. Living a fake life WILL be super draining as opposed to just living how you want to. Your life is YOUR life! If you spend it doing what you think others want, you'll end up living someone else's live. Don't do what others say if it will only end up hurting you or someone else.

If you ever feel like you're life isn't worth living like I have, I promise you, it is worth living. Nothing that bad can happen that outweighs all the awesome stuff about you, even if you don't recognize it right away.

Life can suck—there's no avoiding that—but it truly does get better, no matter what. So pick your head up and fight through it, because there's always something to look forward too, even if it's blinded by all the crappy things that come your way.

But seriously, LISTEN TO THIS!

~ JaxX